Sunday, August 21, 2005
Freaked out!
2o Aug'05
Hellow...
today, i am sooo FREAKED OUT
i had an encounter with something. I am seriously not sure if it is from God or not.
Well what happened was that i was doing my Quite Time or QT this morning. Ok, normal la
i sang songs and prayed for understanding about what i was going to read today.
I just finished the book of Luke, so i am starting John today. I as reading reading, then decided to read again to read that portion that i was reading to like understand better lah.
The verse that caught my eye was John1:7. When i read that, the word "witness" and "testify" caught my eye.
I read that verse again and again, but i was feeling scared bcos i felt that, knew that it was what i had to do. And then, i started trembling. All the while when i read that verse, i felt that i should turn to my fave chpt of the Bible. Is 43. When i turned to Is 43, straight away, v.10 of that chapt. 1 BIG word: witness. Then, at the side, at the notes (i am using a study bible of QT) testify.
When i saw that, although i was already trembling, i started to tremble even more, could not reali stop myself from doing that. Its like crying when God touches you. I could not stop, even the words that came out off my mouth were shaky although i ment it to be normal. I had never trembled until like that before. I kinda liken the trembling to be in winter without warm clothing. So scary. I was there alone, doing QT, trembling non stop, could not help it. I felt so freaked out.
This is the first time something like that happened to me as in trembling la.
Now, i am wondering is that from God or something else. At that time, when i was trembling, i kinda forgot to call out in the name of Jesus to stop that, but i guess that it is just human, when reali faced with the "danger" all the protection just forgottened suddenly.
This was so scary, after that when i calmed down, i called people to pray for me. It was really comforting. Thks jie :)
I really dont know, that could be a few things to me, a spiritual attack, God, or, maybe issit just me or... ...? God, please speak to me, tell me oh lord. I am here, speak and i will listen, yes, i will dear Daddy in heaven. It was so scary. Daddy! ¶ 10:11 PM
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Hellow...
today, i am sooo FREAKED OUT
i had an encounter with something. I am seriously not sure if it is from God or not.
Well what happened was that i was doing my Quite Time or QT this morning. Ok, normal la
i sang songs and prayed for understanding about what i was going to read today.
I just finished the book of Luke, so i am starting John today. I as reading reading, then decided to read again to read that portion that i was reading to like understand better lah.
The verse that caught my eye was John1:7. When i read that, the word "witness" and "testify" caught my eye.
I read that verse again and again, but i was feeling scared bcos i felt that, knew that it was what i had to do. And then, i started trembling. All the while when i read that verse, i felt that i should turn to my fave chpt of the Bible. Is 43. When i turned to Is 43, straight away, v.10 of that chapt. 1 BIG word: witness. Then, at the side, at the notes (i am using a study bible of QT) testify.
When i saw that, although i was already trembling, i started to tremble even more, could not reali stop myself from doing that. Its like crying when God touches you. I could not stop, even the words that came out off my mouth were shaky although i ment it to be normal. I had never trembled until like that before. I kinda liken the trembling to be in winter without warm clothing. So scary. I was there alone, doing QT, trembling non stop, could not help it. I felt so freaked out.
This is the first time something like that happened to me as in trembling la.
Now, i am wondering is that from God or something else. At that time, when i was trembling, i kinda forgot to call out in the name of Jesus to stop that, but i guess that it is just human, when reali faced with the "danger" all the protection just forgottened suddenly.
This was so scary, after that when i calmed down, i called people to pray for me. It was really comforting. Thks jie :)
I really dont know, that could be a few things to me, a spiritual attack, God, or, maybe issit just me or... ...? God, please speak to me, tell me oh lord. I am here, speak and i will listen, yes, i will dear Daddy in heaven. It was so scary. Daddy! ¶ 10:11 PM
