today is supposed to be our 1st mth anniversary here sits a girl
caught somewhere in the transistion of being a girl and a lady
feeling so frail
leaning against the rail

somebdy important to her seems to be so near yet so far
she calls out to God
and he replys her with visions
she wonders what does a sunrise mean
it is so beautiful after all
holding hands what a beautiful thing too

"God" she says
that somebody means alot to me
i tried my best
trying to make it work
being utterly devoted to God and that smbody
why must this be happening to us?

this girl
hopes
prays
wishes
yearns
that everything would be back to normal

this gal want to tell somebdy that
this decision is the Lord's
remember seek thee first the kingdom of God
she cherishes, really like that somebdy alot

wishing...
praying......
longing.........

the girl   ¶ 11:30 AM 0 Comments

  not in a good mood hello
sometimes, i really dislike, not sometimes,
i reali dislike to ctrl-c, ctrl-v a smile onto my face
when i am sad, no mood at all inside

reali disliked to be ingored especially by somebody
it hurts, really hurts alot
especially if this person is close to you
hurts till i start to cry
but i dont cry in public if i can help it, and i generally can
however, sometimes, i do cry in public like that time during morning prayer(but its God, so dats another matter)

wish want that this person would be back to normal asap
means alot to me that person  ¶ 12:11 AM 0 Comments

  My Birthday!!! hellooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!!!!!!!!

today is...
my
BIRTHDAY!!!!!! yeah
Happy Birthday to Elizabeth, me
>> thk u thk u
hehe :P

i really had a happy birthday, finally, a birthday that is HAPPY.. lots of smiles :)
really thank God for a birthday like this

went to class and they suprised me with a lovely present, it was really cute, all of them!
the class had a last meal together at school, the almost everybdy had western food and chicken too
meet Alarice for lunch snack, had a great time with her
saw this very nice cow
and heres the happy happy part...
i had birthday dinner with Shirley and Hazel (SHE) at New York New York, the food not bad, had one whole small chicken(but was still abit hungry), really had fun with them, was really glad to be able to meet my two fave gals and have a meal with them on this special day. these two gals know me, my taste so well that they know,got excatly what i want, stuff that are so me lah in my style.
S.H.E ~~maybe we friends for all time, love u gals lots!

Also, i wanna thank everybody who wished me a Happy Birthday, i really appreciate it alot. :)

Ate Chicken 3 times today and now my stomah is filled with Chicken and i even ate a whole entire chicken with i was with my SHE for dinner lah!

I wanna thank God for blessing me today and always, i can always count on God no matter what.

i end with a song dedicated to God and i mean whatever it says.

Take my life and let it be

Take my life, and let it be consecrated, Lord, to Thee.
Take my moments and my days; let them flow in ceaseless praise.
Take my hands, and let them move at the impulse of Thy love.
Take my feet, and let them be swift and beautiful for Thee.

Take my voice, and let me sing always, only, for my King.
Take my lips, and let them be filled with messages from Thee.
Take my silver and my gold; not a mite would I withhold.
Take my intellect, and use every power as Thou shalt choose.

Take my will, and make it Thine; it shall be no longer mine.
Take my heart, it is Thine own; it shall be Thy royal throne.
Take my love, my Lord, I pour at Thy feet its treasure store.
Take myself, and I will be ever, only, all for Thee.

smiles
Beth  ¶ 11:44 PM 0 Comments

  My Birthday!!!   ¶ 11:44 PM 0 Comments

  wooo alalal hello!!!
i am supposed to be studying
gosh but am doing something else instead
lemme see i am 4 tasking? i am currently blogging, diarying, studying, chatting
all at the same time. shiok rite?
thank God i am a female.

i must really thank God for his grace and his blessings
credit goes to God everything nice that has happened
all that he has given me, talents, friends, joy, peace,
i try to use for his glory.
dont get me wrong, i dont use friends, i bless them
and of course i know that generally all of my Christian friends would want to be used by God for his glory and to pass on his blessings onto others.

God, i want to be used by you in everyway
God, just use me lah
this Elizabeth is availiable for use, got no expiry date de, and no dateline, no restriction de
i trust you God to provide everything
Faith and Trust is what i need.
in fact, these two are very impt in relationships
not forgetting God's assurance of his never failing LOVe <3
the last will be the first

suddenly i got inspiration, and thus... what i call the Elizabeth's cow theory
a herd of cows eats grass and other stuff that the farmer gives
the cows eats from young till old pratically the same thing (boring)
as the cows grow up, they are being observed by the farmers
when the cows are older, and time is ripe, they get like flitered to their various jobs
>> to me, this stage is like God showing us our purpose in life, what he wants us to do, to be, seperating us

their various jobs vary
some cows go into the job of providing milk
some cows go into the job of breeding the future of the cow herd
some cows sigh... are set aside to be killed and eaten, become beef steak (poor cows)
>> this is like when God reveals his purpose for us

every job that are allocated, will benfit somebody
to these cows, people is their God, humans feed them and all that
>> just like God Jesus teaches, trains us, feeds us

for every job they do, it will be of benfit to some humans
providing milk will quench the thirst of people
breeding the future generation of cows will also mean that the supply of be beef, milk and cow decendents will not run out
cows to be slaughtered will provide many humans with food, make the hungry no longer hungry
>> after all that training, whatever that we would be doing go back to God and his people, making use of what we have been been blessed with to be a blessing to others. regardless of how is it done, what role we gonna play, we will still be serving God, only that we have got to realize that we are actually doing that and sometimes we dont.

the other than their fellow cows, the cows on the farm only know humans
in their simple mindset, since the farmers provide them with everything
farmers(humans) must be God

>therefore, God is our farmer (humans) and we serve him. all the training that he gives us will one day be put into use.

and so this is Elizabeth's Cow theory done with a sudden inspiration.
live in peace

smiles
Beth  ¶ 11:14 PM 0 Comments

  hello
long time since i blogged.
life has been relatively good.
found this really nice nice friend who is reali lah... bao ka liao
Thank God for everything.

SA elections came out
many of my friends got in
am really happy for them and i hope that they will do a good job with the leadership responsibilty given to them
i believe they will and also God would be with them in everything they do, guilding them through
my long time friend didnt get in, but am glad that now, he got more time to spend servin the Lord in church and have more time to spend with God too. Also, glad that now he can have more time for himself now.

i also want to tell another friend that
let not anyone bring us down
God is in control and
lets learn from the story of of that wise old man Moses before the Pharoh
p.s i think that my cow is reali cute lor!

saw my dear Hazel, really glad to see her again.
miss that dear gal and Shirley much.

shall blog another time

with a smile,
...Beth
  ¶ 11:42 PM 0 Comments