Speck in the eye
Sunday, August 21, 2005
Freaked out!
2o Aug'05
Hellow...
today, i am sooo FREAKED OUT
i had an encounter with something. I am seriously not sure if it is from God or not.
Well what happened was that i was doing my Quite Time or QT this morning. Ok, normal la
i sang songs and prayed for understanding about what i was going to read today.
I just finished the book of Luke, so i am starting John today. I as reading reading, then decided to read again to read that portion that i was reading to like understand better lah.
The verse that caught my eye was John1:7. When i read that, the word "witness" and "testify" caught my eye.
I read that verse again and again, but i was feeling scared bcos i felt that, knew that it was what i had to do. And then, i started trembling. All the while when i read that verse, i felt that i should turn to my fave chpt of the Bible. Is 43. When i turned to Is 43, straight away, v.10 of that chapt. 1 BIG word: witness. Then, at the side, at the notes (i am using a study bible of QT) testify.
When i saw that, although i was already trembling, i started to tremble even more, could not reali stop myself from doing that. Its like crying when God touches you. I could not stop, even the words that came out off my mouth were shaky although i ment it to be normal. I had never trembled until like that before. I kinda liken the trembling to be in winter without warm clothing. So scary. I was there alone, doing QT, trembling non stop, could not help it. I felt so freaked out.
This is the first time something like that happened to me as in trembling la.
Now, i am wondering is that from God or something else. At that time, when i was trembling, i kinda forgot to call out in the name of Jesus to stop that, but i guess that it is just human, when reali faced with the "danger" all the protection just forgottened suddenly.
This was so scary, after that when i calmed down, i called people to pray for me. It was really comforting. Thks jie :)
I really dont know, that could be a few things to me, a spiritual attack, God, or, maybe issit just me or... ...? God, please speak to me, tell me oh lord. I am here, speak and i will listen, yes, i will dear Daddy in heaven. It was so scary. Daddy! ¶ 10:11 PM 0 Comments
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Hellow...
today, i am sooo FREAKED OUT
i had an encounter with something. I am seriously not sure if it is from God or not.
Well what happened was that i was doing my Quite Time or QT this morning. Ok, normal la
i sang songs and prayed for understanding about what i was going to read today.
I just finished the book of Luke, so i am starting John today. I as reading reading, then decided to read again to read that portion that i was reading to like understand better lah.
The verse that caught my eye was John1:7. When i read that, the word "witness" and "testify" caught my eye.
I read that verse again and again, but i was feeling scared bcos i felt that, knew that it was what i had to do. And then, i started trembling. All the while when i read that verse, i felt that i should turn to my fave chpt of the Bible. Is 43. When i turned to Is 43, straight away, v.10 of that chapt. 1 BIG word: witness. Then, at the side, at the notes (i am using a study bible of QT) testify.
When i saw that, although i was already trembling, i started to tremble even more, could not reali stop myself from doing that. Its like crying when God touches you. I could not stop, even the words that came out off my mouth were shaky although i ment it to be normal. I had never trembled until like that before. I kinda liken the trembling to be in winter without warm clothing. So scary. I was there alone, doing QT, trembling non stop, could not help it. I felt so freaked out.
This is the first time something like that happened to me as in trembling la.
Now, i am wondering is that from God or something else. At that time, when i was trembling, i kinda forgot to call out in the name of Jesus to stop that, but i guess that it is just human, when reali faced with the "danger" all the protection just forgottened suddenly.
This was so scary, after that when i calmed down, i called people to pray for me. It was really comforting. Thks jie :)
I really dont know, that could be a few things to me, a spiritual attack, God, or, maybe issit just me or... ...? God, please speak to me, tell me oh lord. I am here, speak and i will listen, yes, i will dear Daddy in heaven. It was so scary. Daddy! ¶ 10:11 PM 0 Comments
Saturday, August 13, 2005
words r.
12 Auf
Hellow.
Also i feel quite bad today because i like er... talked bad about other churches. Ok, this is not my first time doing this. Just that sometimes, i am being straight foward here. Sometimes, i think that other church trying to 'snatch member'. Ok, this is the wrong mindset lah, sorry. i know that they are not.
Its not that i dont know my facts, i know, i know lots about that God and churches. However, i never always/usually do what i am supposed to do which is to not go like go against fellow churches. i am so bad. i had this issue for a while, praying, repenting about it, asking God to remove these wrong thoughts that are not even supposed to be there, giving me a heart that loves all the churches regardless of anything. Takes time, but i know that God is there helping me through this issue for he loves all of his children no more no less. Just like that song that has the line "nothing you can do, could make him love you more, and nothing that you've done could make him close the door......."
Hey! i just realize and want to reassure myself now that God does not show favoritism, so no matter which church we go to, daddy in heaven still loves us all THE SAME. Therefore, no matter which church we go to, we are all under the body of Christ. Church is just a building, a name of an like 'organization ' of people gathered together. If there is no one at the building, than the 'church' is just a building. There are different meaning of churches. i shall not go into that today.
I am trying to stop myself from having the wrong perspecitive, saying the wrong thing with the wrong content. Sorry God, about today, shouldn't have. '
>> hugz<< ¶ 12:10 AM 0 Comments
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Hellow.
Also i feel quite bad today because i like er... talked bad about other churches. Ok, this is not my first time doing this. Just that sometimes, i am being straight foward here. Sometimes, i think that other church trying to 'snatch member'. Ok, this is the wrong mindset lah, sorry. i know that they are not.
Its not that i dont know my facts, i know, i know lots about that God and churches. However, i never always/usually do what i am supposed to do which is to not go like go against fellow churches. i am so bad. i had this issue for a while, praying, repenting about it, asking God to remove these wrong thoughts that are not even supposed to be there, giving me a heart that loves all the churches regardless of anything. Takes time, but i know that God is there helping me through this issue for he loves all of his children no more no less. Just like that song that has the line "nothing you can do, could make him love you more, and nothing that you've done could make him close the door......."
Hey! i just realize and want to reassure myself now that God does not show favoritism, so no matter which church we go to, daddy in heaven still loves us all THE SAME. Therefore, no matter which church we go to, we are all under the body of Christ. Church is just a building, a name of an like 'organization ' of people gathered together. If there is no one at the building, than the 'church' is just a building. There are different meaning of churches. i shall not go into that today.
I am trying to stop myself from having the wrong perspecitive, saying the wrong thing with the wrong content. Sorry God, about today, shouldn't have. '
>> hugz<< ¶ 12:10 AM 0 Comments
Monday, August 01, 2005
Sometimes
hellow!
sometimes i wonder what my future would be like.
Sometimes, talking to certain a people makes me real bored.
sometimes i say to God " This is my life, take it"
Sometimes i say to God" Since this is my life, let me handle it on my own"
sometimes being me is not sufficent enough, i need God
sometimes i wonder who will if i will marry
sometimes i wonder if i will NOT marry
sometimes i wonder Who will be my groom
sometimes i wonder if i will live in Spore all my life
sometimes i wonder what it would be really like to go on the field
sometimes, i wonder if there are strings attached to most things in life
sometimes, wondering alone will not produce anything
But
All the time, i belive in Christ
All the time, i know that God has given me a purpose in life
All the time, i see my fellow 'family members' around me
All the time, i will follow thee
All the time, i have the faith that no matter which path i go, i have a good friend with me
All the time, living life is not easy
All the time, i want, pray for things which cannot be brought with money
All the time, i pray that there would be more good than bad in the world
All the time having fun, love and joy is something that i will want
All the time, i trust GOd to be my matchmaker, he makes the BEST decisions :)
All the time, want to be me! :)
Above all, i am a PRINCESS and i will go to the ends of the earth for him ¶ 9:38 PM 0 Comments
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sometimes i wonder what my future would be like.
Sometimes, talking to certain a people makes me real bored.
sometimes i say to God " This is my life, take it"
Sometimes i say to God" Since this is my life, let me handle it on my own"
sometimes being me is not sufficent enough, i need God
sometimes i wonder who will if i will marry
sometimes i wonder if i will NOT marry
sometimes i wonder Who will be my groom
sometimes i wonder if i will live in Spore all my life
sometimes i wonder what it would be really like to go on the field
sometimes, i wonder if there are strings attached to most things in life
sometimes, wondering alone will not produce anything
But
All the time, i belive in Christ
All the time, i know that God has given me a purpose in life
All the time, i see my fellow 'family members' around me
All the time, i will follow thee
All the time, i have the faith that no matter which path i go, i have a good friend with me
All the time, living life is not easy
All the time, i want, pray for things which cannot be brought with money
All the time, i pray that there would be more good than bad in the world
All the time having fun, love and joy is something that i will want
All the time, i trust GOd to be my matchmaker, he makes the BEST decisions :)
All the time, want to be me! :)
Above all, i am a PRINCESS and i will go to the ends of the earth for him ¶ 9:38 PM 0 Comments
