Speck in the eye

New!

2008-11-01T11:02:00.004+08:00

Hies
Beth has now in addition to Franco kor(who will always be THE BEST),
- one Mei Mei: Rachel Chiu
- one A jie: Mala from work
- one Gan Ma: Wai Ling from work who is also my Shi-fu

hhaa..
man.. i think i sound childish, but am serious about them
esp my dear Rachel Chiu
see my kor and you will know

Love my job cos i can help people, understand their life current situations, give them a smile to cheer them up, bless them, hug them (sometimes), almost cry with them too(sometimes).
Also, i can tell my other friends the importance of having a healthy body, the importance of saving, and tell them roughly the cost(like literally) of staying in a hospital and how nice the govt is somehow.
In addition to these, i have reali great colleagues who i totally enjoy being with like Joy, Milly, Ah Zhen, Bryan and James and others too! oh! Mala the ah Zeh and Wai Ling my gan ma shifu, along with others too! Lazy to name like pratically the who office.
Working there for the past months has reali taught me alot of things such as the importance of having insurance.

Thank God for this job :)

The usual gang of us:)

Beth...

intersting

2008-10-27T22:57:00.002+08:00

Interesting happenings in life
Good friend return into my life

Am now working at Business Office, SGH
i CURRENTLY like my job as am able to bless some people given the opportunity and also can interact with the patients
People there are not bad, nice
cant wait to be converted into a perm staff and wear that purple uniform(though it really has no shape)
am beginning to see God's purpose of putting me there :)
one downside now is that i dont know what my exact job scope is, neither does my manager...gwash, but its ok :) one step at a time

Had overnight prayer today/last night
it was interesting
had prayer drive, God blessed us w a couple who offered to take us ard CBD area to pray, they had this huge 8 seater car... darn cool!
man, it was sooo shiok with no one on the city's roads at 2am
had the road all to ourselves
awesome

oh and also
KOR KNOWS BEST
totally
he gives the best advice too by saying "I dont have to say anything, you know what do do already"

Beth loves God frst and
Beth loves her kor

lydia

2008-10-07T00:00:00.002+08:00

Picture this
someone wearing...
-a sleeveless top
-mini skirt
-2 inch heels
-handbag
-gold necklace

sounds really like a good friend of mine-Lydia
but no, it was me
have never worn heels w short skirt before, but i did! and it felt strange, yet, cos was with her, it kinda felt good for a while
Think this is wat happens when u know someone for a longgggg time-their fashion sense somehow rubs off on u
Still remember the times in lower sec when demin skirts were(and still is) the 'in' thing, what to me was short, she usually said 'thats too long for me". It kinda still like that now, jsut that its now shorts, not skirts. Somethings dont change
We took neo prints too! Brought back memories... its something that we used to do almost every time we went out last time. She was my neo print expert then, and still is :)
Though sometimes, i cant really understand why she does certain things, she will forever be my good friend, regardless of anything.

Heels are real pretty!
Beth misses her adorable dear kor kor
Beth misses the elegant lady who has 'Seh"- Pat
Beth misses flying

Interview question

2008-09-03T01:20:00.002+08:00

Be going for a job interview tomorrow
One of the questions i guess would be " What are your career plans" or "How do you see yourself in your career 5 yrs down the road"

Man, would feel like a complete liar when answering the question abt career plans.
The model ans of this question would be to say that " Oh, i see myself promoted up in this company, climb up the ladder in this company" so on .....
this would be to help me get the job, of course each company would want potential staff to stay in the company for as long as poss. Dont think they would want someone who come and go, they want someone with loyal commitment.

What i really wish to say actually is that
" I dont really have career plans, i jsut want to work to prepare myself to earn some money for my real plans, which is to become a missionary overseas. Working here is jsut to have a form of understanding what the working world is like and to fulfill to a certain extent, a form of obligation to my parents and siblings and to contribute to my family's income too for a while. This is a preparation time for what i really want to do."

Well, i cant possibly say whatever i have just written above can i? I believe that unless the boss is magical, the boss would most likely not employ me after i say what i jsut wrote. Have to give as much info that is as close to the truth as poss. Ok, maybe i plan to go up the ladder these 2-3 yrs, but after that, would be likely to say bye bye to whatever i have now and leave for missions. Yeah! then i dont think be lying thru my teeth after all.
God is in control over every interview and the words that i speak.

Take care! :)

one with dreams

2008-09-01T14:51:00.003+08:00

Am supposed to be sending out resumes,
but then attention got diverted when i started daydreaming

Beth is a gal? lady? with dreams
Dreams that usually involve missions
Sitting here, in front of the com, she cant help but wondering how to fulfill those dreams

Well, a daydream that i have been constantly thinking about is to...
set up a shelter of sorts in a third world country
This shelter can range from things like an orphanage/ a shelter for the widows and their kid/ a center to teach people a skill or two that would help them to bring some income to their families/ a school for kids who are too poor to go to a public school, the list just goes on.
There are so many needs in those poorer countries, i cant possibly fulfill all those needs, but want to at least do something that would give them at more hope in their lives. Yearn to see a smile on their faces, a sign of hope for the future.
To fulfill those dreams, the first step is to work first. Need the money to go over and set up my dream, alot of money is needed. Yes, i can ask for funds, but still the best is to give out off my own pocket first then ask from others i feel. Also, i need the necessary skills and people. All these i dont have yet. What i have now is just a dream, but thats a start!
Also, this would prob mean that i wont ever buy any branded stuff in my life for myself, so be it then. Better not even indulge in buying those things then get hocked on buying those branded stuff once i buy my first eh... Coach Wallet. Hmm.. actually the chances of buying those branded stuff for others is more likely though, its more fun ^^
Its high cost to set up my dream building. Yes... BUILDING, not center in some building, wanna build my own. If set up my own orphanage, want my own playground. Want a part of the building premises to plant things like vegi and flowers. Ok, this building may not be Mine, but be in some sense mine, cos... i plan to be running it with another person. Even so, its got to be a building and some land, with space and sun and soil :)

Am trusting in God to provide all that is needed. Cant do it on my own, need God in that from people to finances and every little thing.
Thats my dream, with God, it would be fulfilled!

:)
Beth

21st!

2008-08-29T01:25:00.003+08:00

Beth is HAPPY!!!
Having a total of 3 day celebrations this year for
21st bday
actually.. its 3.5 ba

lets see celebrated 21st with...
> Cell
> Joy, Jon, Huiyi
> Prayer Min
> Jas, Marcus and Kor

Just celebrated with Jas, Marcus and Kor, its Marcus the bday today actually
lalallala..
had sooo much fun!!
Totally enjoyed enjoyed
We had steamboat cum bbq cum sashimi
then after that went to play sparkles at a park
had sooo much soo much fun
really happy, loveeee being with them :D
Wish that the night didnt have to end
End it did, but on a nice note
Marcus was really funny when he used the car headlights to shine at a ulu hut.. lol
Glad that Marcus enjoyed his bday

Thanks Marcus, Jas and dear kor

And once again, i wanna say Thks! to Kor kor, is reali the best kor in the whole wide world to me :) love him super much

God blessed :)

2008-07-29T00:23:00.001+08:00

2008-06-05T00:30:00.001+08:00

hhaa :)

job

2008-05-30T00:18:00.002+08:00

Yeah! praise the lord! am surviving my job
its an admin job which is reali out of character
regardless praise HIM that i got the job, well, i specifically asked for an admin job and got it
so cant complain
yepsyeps.. the Bible said "ask and it will be given" but then THINK first than ask

at least now i know better what kind of job am more suitable for
Thank GOd for this :)

China trip -may 08

2008-05-06T00:36:00.008+08:00

Hies! Went to China, Chengdu recently to visit and explore the place. Man.. it was really an eye opener here are some pictures

People who sent us off :) thanks!

Cute Puppies doggies for sale!! These were sold on the street
Went with the both of them to China FOOD!! super duper important.. yummy!

Just ask me if you wanna know more about the trip :)
Totally enjoyed the time there

Took this picture at Changi airport, T3, really like it :)

Finally ah

2008-04-07T00:52:00.007+08:00

Went out with Huiyi and Joy sometime last wk

had a super time of catching up
'chilled' at Westmall Foodcourt till closing time :P

Pics =)

loves!

oh..
i FINALLY borrowed the book that i have been trying to read for quite some time
it is...

THIS!
this Fantasy author(Kate Forsyth) is good man
like all her books, totally captivating
ok.. this is not a Christian book, but i just the lovveee Fantasy genre

GRADUATION!

2008-03-30T23:32:00.013+08:00

Hies my GRADUATION
was on 26 March 2008

Through out those three yrs in Republic Poly,
God has blessed me with so much
and taught me many lessons too

Will always remember that day
Friends are priceless

some pics....

my dad and bro :)

with Angel and Lixian

This is Ms Loh, not Ms Tan :P One of the best facis

ex-classmates :)

Carrrrrr-men

my FYP boss for 2 sems

_____________________________
celebrated this day of graduation at night with church mates:
Franco Kor, Marcus and Jas
super the enjoy and felt soooo loved♥ by them ♥

Dessert!!.. sweet hopes for the future
with Jas :)

with my fave guys

what a memorable day... 26 march 2008
♥

Blog revamp!

2008-03-29T01:24:00.002+08:00

Hies
This blog just got revamped!!

decided that this blog would be more of a picture blog this time:)
Man.. simply love pictures
have some plans
- This blog would have more picutures
- Just created an account in Fotki.com to upload pics by the lot
- Might consider having a Deviantart account in the future too!

man.. pictures pictures pictures!!
soo exciting :)
ahh.. me want a better camera then!! a DSLR or a camera that can take black and white shots be nice

2007 Thanking Session

2008-01-01T03:57:00.000+08:00

Hies
Here is the 2007 Thanking Session-
this entry is to thank the people who have helped / impacted me in 2007

- Lydia (this one can never be out off this list de lah, by defualt le)
- Jasmin (for everything about her, especially the marvelous close friendship, bond with each other that we will share forever, and yes, share almost every food too! love this gal very very much! )
- Jonathan (this one hor, really lah, best best, he really all rounder in my life)
- Aunty Elaine ( for her wisdom and good advice)
- LaLa ( for her great job being cell leader and her much loved friendship too!)
- Franco Kor (simply cos... i LOVE my Kor Kor)
- Doris ( for making me think about my future)
- Joy to the world ( for also making me think about my future)
- Sufern ( for being there when i am down)
- Ah Bau (for being such a great team leader and a great friend - who can even read me like a book!)
- Morning Prayer group (for being such a great prayerful and family-ish bunch!)
- Howai ah (for making me stop thinking so much in "what if...")
- Kieth's cell, now my cell ( for making church fun)
- GOD ( the one who created all these people, if HE didn't create them, they wont be here)

Thank you all!

God, thank You

2007-11-18T23:01:00.000+08:00

i am FREE!

thanks Mr Ong for your prayer, what God put on your heart to edify today.

I am FREE from being BIRD
henceforth,
i shall NO LONGER be called Bird
i shall be consecrated onto the Lord
which is what my name truly means

this is really release,
along with other stuff that God put on his heart to edify,
the other stuff.. ask me than i will tell

Rachel too
thanks for Ps 116
its really encouraging too
i thank God that he used u to edify me so greatly
http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Ps%20116;&version=51;

God,
you are the shepherd of my soul
gosh.. that vision
God..am not walking alone you walks with me

God,
your actions and the way you love me
moves me to tears
THANK YOU so much

ElizaBeth

so many thoughts

2007-11-17T23:52:00.000+08:00

when i listen to my heart
what does it say?
what is its biggest desire
what does it long for?
what does it want to do?
who does it look to in happy and sad times other than God?

sitting here
my mind is in a mess
so i listen to my heart
my heart longs for a HUG
a HUG to let loss all baggages
a HUG filled with comfort and warmth
a HUG to tell Beth that
she belongs

my heart wants... company
even if it is just sitting beside her, not talking
just enjoying the night and silence.
peace

longings, desires of the heart.....

when YOU listen to YOUR heart
what does it say?
what is its biggest desire
what does it long for?
what does it want to do?
who does it look to in happy and sad times other than God?

wallk walk

2007-11-02T00:57:00.000+08:00

Beth
walks and walks
walk
walk
walk
walk
walk

where will she stop
when will she stop
where will she end up
who will she walk with other than God
where is she walking to
what is in the road ahead of her
walk by FAITH
walk with OBEDIENCE
walk with TRUST

Beth
walks
walks
continue ... walking

where will God lead her too?
her future, in the hands of God
she just follows his lead
vague this path may seem sometimes
this path of FAITH
all she knows is that this path
is one that is made by the lord
she wont go wrong by
walking down this path
after all,
God never does anything wrong

questioning
wondering
asking

Beth
just
walks
keep
walking

2007-10-31T23:49:00.000+08:00

am supposed to be doing my FYP now
but just felt like blogging :P

God thank you
Beth really happy
she has found a someone whose inner self is sorta like hers
never thought she would find a friend like that
Beth is not weird after all
there is someone else who is almost just like her
no Beth is not crazy
there is someone else who likes to do certain things the way she does
too
God
really thank you
this is sooo amazing

i hope that friend is glad too
to that friend:
you are not alone! Beth is here!
someone almost similar
thank God so much for you :)

new nickname for that friend: the other weird person
so... Beth is also am the other weird person
LOL

hur hur
Beth

2007-10-13T01:27:00.000+08:00

Just felt like pouring out, suffocating of love to sm1/s, any1/s with words of appreciation and loveee to tell how much i like/ appreciate these people
ok.. who who should i lament about?

i know! my kor lah

KOR
kor oh kor
my BIG bro
he is super duper nice
who God has blessed me with
although he is not my real kor
he is still my kor all the same
my one and only kor
he has a nice tummy
and is not super tall
quite tubby too
but
i love my kor cos he is my bro
just because is my kor
my kor is always smart and great
this mei mei here
would always look up to him
and support him all the way
cos..
he is my kor
no other explanation is needed

ok.. here is another one

HAZEL
Hazel
i loveeee HAZEL
one of the good-est friends i ever have had
she is not Hazel eyed though
not very tall, but very cute
very huggable too
like a teddy bear in just the right size
talking to Hazel is really shiok
she speaks the sense into me
though i seldom see her
i know that she thinks about me sometimes, many times
her boyfriend is tallllllllll
suits her well too
that awesome couple
but still
Hazel is the one i see eye to eye
her man is super tall
not tall enough to see eye to eye
no matter waht
i love Hazel
my beloved Sister in Christ

Founde with Amelia and her bf

2007-10-10T23:11:00.000+08:00

Hies!
i had Chocolate Fondue for the FIRST time today!
FINALLY
got to eat it!! yeah!
went to eat it with Amelia and her man

couldn't resist taking pics

Pics are.. belowwwww

yeps yeps.. so
thats the Fondue that got eaten up
the puffs looked really like the tiny version of the Beard Papa's cream puffs
PUFF!! ^^

Beth

nice but looong song

2007-10-09T00:45:00.000+08:00

hies.
the song You Gave Your Life Away by Paul Baloche
is nice
but.. man
its the most lullaby-ish ( as in sleep inducing) Christian song i have ever heard!
the singer just goes You Gave you gave you gave you gave
for like many many times
so much that the other words are like almost realli side-lined to the max
even so
the lyrics are really contain loads of meanings that touch my heart

i heard it in Rachel's car on the way to town last Sun
then sang it so much off key that it irritated Justin as the bunch of us were shopping hahaa
well.. the words just got suck in my head

here are the lyrics of that wonderful but lullaby-ish song

YOU GAVE YOUR LIFE AWAY

You spoke and worlds were formed
You breathed and life was born
You knew that one day You would come

So far from Heaven’s throne
Clothed in human form
You showed the world the Father’s love

You gave You gave Your life away
You gave You gave Your life away
You gave You gave Your life away for me

Your grace has broken every chain
My sins are gone my debts been paid
You gave You gave Your life away for me
For me

You lived a sinless life
Yet You were crucified
You bought our freedom on the cross

Forsaken for our sin
You died and rose again
Jesus You are the Lamb of God

How glorious is Your love
If I could sing forever it’s not enough
How glorious is Your love
If I could sing forever it’s not enough

enjoy!
too bad i could not find the mp3 of this song on Imeem

my BIG giraffe necklace

2007-10-04T22:23:00.000+08:00

hies!
i got my BIGGEST necklace ever last Sun.
Simply proud it
here is how it looks like

cant see anything yet right? wait waitheres a vague glimpse of it
ok.. here is the x-rayed version of it

and here it is!!!

Beth with it!! :)

ok.. the Mr Giraffe show is over :)
Mr Giraffe has been worn out
nice thing to play with while doing work

as requested

2007-09-27T23:46:00.000+08:00

hies
as requested
here are the two pics taken during Poly Forum :)

Got more pics
but then... lazzzyyyyyyyyyyyyy to eject External HDD and put in thumbdrive
blah
this entry be removed soon.. i think

good bye red-sea divider

2007-09-25T00:06:00.000+08:00

hies,

after that talk with u,
i feel much better than i did in months
thks for giving me the time and opportunity to have that talk with u

you will always have a friend in me no matter waht
just come find me if anything
you know i be there
with open arms

i will try to stop crying
be strong

Beth

Beth's verse

2007-09-16T22:08:00.000+08:00

Hies
guess what
i found a verse in the BIBLE that has BETH in it!
and its like for Beth!
hoho!

Here it is :)

b Beth

9 How can a young man keep his way pure?
By living according to your word.

10 I seek you with all my heart;
do not let me stray from your commands.

11 I have hidden your word in my heart
that I might not sin against you.

12 Praise be to you, O LORD;
teach me your decrees.

13 With my lips I recount
all the laws that come from your mouth.

14 I rejoice in following your statutes
as one rejoices in great riches.

15 I meditate on your precepts
and consider your ways.

16 I delight in your decrees;
I will not neglect your word.

Psalm 119: 9-16 (NIV)

God is great
i love him :)

new blogskin

2007-09-01T01:45:00.000+08:00

Hello,
i decided to change blogskin again
like this one better :)

ok guess what...
for those who decide to patronize my blog( and thank you for coming here to this dreary blog ),
now YOU can now comment
see that comment thing below each entry?
well, if you want, you can comment using that
so,if you vocalize your thoughts there

August '07 has been great..
am OFFICALLY 20 years OLD
may Sept and the rest of the mths be better
amen!

smiles
Beth

BETH-day pics

2007-08-24T00:13:00.000+08:00

Hies!
here are some pics taken on BETHday.

@ Suntec fountain

Sashimi

Group photo of all of us! :)

Wenlian match the bridge :P

All the :)s

This is BETH

And those were the main pics taken

I must really ...
Thank Carmen for taking practically all those wonderful pics
they are absolutely gorgeous
Thanks for the company and the fun time
Thanks for the presents too!
it was a Great 20th birthday.

smiles and loves
Beth

*P.s. this is abt the first time that pics like these are shown on my blog!

BETHday

2007-08-23T00:11:00.000+08:00

hies!

Birthday, BETHday was great at the end.

went out with class gals to have dinner and window shopped
fun!

yeah!! i had a birthday celebration with made me smile
but
what matters most is that the people i celebrate with smile too

5 friends in total i celebrate my birthday with today
this is the first time in years that i celebrate with so many people

thank you God, for a good start
smiles to God and to all my friends

what a ride the past two decades of my life was
many lessons have been learnt
many experiences that i went through
many good friends i made

May the rest of the years be good!

Beth

find rest my soul

2007-08-22T01:25:00.000+08:00

Find rest my soul
its my birthday
but...
yeah...
find rest my soul

been listening to the song ' STILL' for the past 1 hr
but my soul is not a rest

i just cant smile

Being 20.. a new part of my life
no.. am not PMS-ing/mood swing

scared.....

nights

2007-08-12T01:06:00.000+08:00

hello,
i think.. i wish
there would be more day than nights
but i make it clear first
i like nights!!
especially when go out
love the night breeze and all

however,
at nights, bleahx
its when i am quiet, think
God.
can i have people around me all the time? 24/7?
even if got people and be quiet i also dont mind
thank God for MSN
at least there are people online

even so,
it is nice to be alone sometimes too
that is one of the reasons why i appreciate nights
its good to have people and good to be alone
both ways

gosh.. i think am revealing too much on blog these days
see see
this is what happens at night
when am alone
shucks!

this life is a lot about giving and taking
its either...
- giving a lot, taking little
- giving little, take alot
- give 50%, take 50%
each of those 3 pt above occur at diff times

i think...
xiao Beth has grown up a bit more
but Beth in the essence is still.. Beth

oh well.. i reali.. dont know!!!!
oh well.. i feel like eating chicken ban mian

suddenly...

2007-08-02T00:12:00.000+08:00

hellos
changed blogskin.. again
might change again soon.. that gal in the pic not pretty enough
but like the barefooted concept though

suddenly
things are changing
suddenly
my fortress is collapsing
suddenly
people are changing
suddenly
i have competition
suddenly
there is need to fortify my fortress twice as much as before

God..
i miss that red sea div

Beth.. in desperation

learn from a friend :P

2007-07-29T02:56:00.000+08:00

hies
i learn from my good friend :P
who has this tendency to BLOG when have important/ stress stuff coming....

too bad my blog has got no comments option yet
dont feel like thinking about the coding now
will figure something out, some code, etc ... soon :P
but.. would have NO tagboard
that thing is quite depressing sometimes

i wanna thank some friends for being online right now
when am at this last lap of FYP
they may not know it, but just by them being online is such a good thing
just by chatting keeps me awake, and happy
these people are: Shafiquah, Ivan, Ah Bau, Josh
thanks!!

Am quite caffeine High
drank 3 cups of coffee
Jas had to tell me to stop
tomorrow is going to be fun!
Going out shopping with people like Jas
Hoho!

Ok ...
am going to get back to work NOW
thank God for his blessings
smiles to God

Beth sucks

2007-07-26T00:11:00.000+08:00

Beth sucks
totally

reali bother about my good friends super duper much
i just want to see them smile
see things get back to normal

one min everything was glad and super happy
next min.. gosh.. i am reali sorry
so..

Beth sucks.. period

Hazel, it seems to be a diff story now
the red sea seems like a nice place to be

smoking

2007-07-15T01:35:00.000+08:00

hies
suddenly i decided to blog again
you know
i think i quite like smoking
not smoking as in taking the cigarette and puff
but
smoking as in talking, thats the lingo that my school/class use
but
what is smoking
is it like
1) lying as what my dad says
or
2) jsut making something outta nothing to become something? something that
is actually convincing and becomes really something well, factual
if smoking means the second point then,
hmm.. am actually smoking lorz
if not, i think i got the meaning wrong.

you know
how the Bible says about we being God's choose people and somehow,
its nt by coincidence that we believe in him, it is something that God has already planned
and chosen us to believe in him, be his people
every time i think of that,
i am like super aww-ed by it...
I am one of God's chosen people!
therefore, hope that more people believe, cos when they believe,
they too are God's chosen people..
yeah!!!!
Come on ALL peoples, lets believe in JESUS!
its like the greatest privilege on earth
imagine, to be chosen by God
wahhhhaaaa... shoik xia!

and
you know
FYP (Final Year Project) is important
but
to me, its never as important as people
no matter how busy i may be ( though i wish i was busier)
people is still more important as work to me
i mean its like...
Grades or friend's feelings?
i rather choose friends
or better still, handle both at the same time
One certificate... all the grades
oh well
i know, in Singapore, qualifications are important
but if given a choice,
i would rather be working as a volunteer at some youth in need place

Beth believe in doing things differently
seriously,
when everybody is struggling to get their grades like all the As
aka Mr Ah Bau
i am thinking, are there other ways to do things?
like set up a youth shelter maybe?
something lah
i could sacrifice all my shopping you know?
but then in such a country, money, and still, qualifications is needed
oh well, Beth will just be a good school girl for now
but not a school girl without dreams,
without wanting to do something that will benefit, help many

shall end here today.

till next time!

Beth

career test

2007-07-01T03:15:00.000+08:00

hies
Beth took a career test, these are the results. thanks KJ's blog for the link
Results are indeed Quite true. Link: http://quiz.ivillage.co.uk/uk_work/tests/career.htm

You would most enjoy a career that allows you to meet new people. You would also be happiest in a career that allows you to be free and flexible, and allows you to be extremely creative. Some careers that would be perfect for you are:

Stockbroker
Secretary
Receptionist
Director
Recruitment Consultant
Politician
Marketing
Human Resources Manager
Religious Minister
Teacher
Lawyer
Advertising
Consultant
Financial Adviser
Financial Planner
GP
Physical Therapy
Occupational Therapy
Public Relations
Estate Agent
Travel Agent
Restauranteur
Hotel Manager
Events Organiser

You are a great leader. You genuinely enjoy being around other people. Your relationships with others are very important to you. You love talking and meeting new people. You are very enthusiastic about work and about all that you do and have in your life. You love being the focus of attention. You enjoy a fast pace. You are very socially oriented. Therefore, you are much happier being with others than you are alone. You crave interaction with others.

You are very spontaneous and often act before you think. You are always quick to answer when you are asked a question, even if you aren't sure of the answer. It is easier for you to improvise as you go along. You enjoy thinking out loud, and are most creative when brainstorming with friends or colleagues. You enjoy being involved in many activities.

You are very easy to read, and often wear your heart on your sleeve. You are never afraid to tell people what you think. You are very empathetic and genuine. You can sometimes be seen as over-emotional or too involved by others. But that is only because you tend to get so involved in the things you do that they become personal. You want to be adored, loved and appreciated. You like to please others and to make sure people are happy.

You trust your gut instincts. You are easily inspired and trust that inspiration. You are very innovative. You analyse things by looking at the big picture. You are concerned about how what you do affects others. You worry about your actions and the future. You tend to use a lot of metaphors and are very descriptive and colourful in your choice of language.

You are very creative, and get bored easily if you don't get to express yourself. You like to learn new things. You don't like the same old routine. You like to leave your options open.

beth has to change

2007-06-10T00:15:00.000+08:00

hies,

ok Beth needs to:
- speak slower
- tone down a little

and more stuff.. but those two are the main 2 that Beth needs to work on.

there is the following song is a song that i feel has been speaking to me for some time.
Its the lyrics that matter.

In His Time

In His time, in His time,
He makes all things beautiful, in His time,
Lord, please show me everyday,
As You're teaching me Your way,
That You do just what You say, in Your time.

In Your time, in Your time,
You make all things beautiful, in Your time.
Lord, my life to Your I bring,
May each song I have to sing,
Be to You a lovely thing, in Your time.

However, Beth wonders.
when would she know that it is time already?
this question has been puzzling her for ever since that song came into her head.
Gosh.

Many people see the funny, Joyful and sometimes nonsensical side of Beth
But how many see the serious, reflecting, thinking, quiet side of Beth who despite loving crowds, at times like to be alone?

Thats Beth,
the Joyful free spirit with a shadow.
who LOVES to smile and social
who LOVES God

hhaaa....
smiles !!!

oops.. i think i revealed too much
:P hur hur

long time no blogged

2007-05-15T23:02:00.000+08:00

hello,

long time no blogged

sitting here
slowly reflecting
enjoying the peace
with classic songs playing in the background
letting time slowly drift by
no rush, no hurry
just relaxation

feel that i have said things today, like everyday
that i wish could take back
always afraid of hurting others unintentionally
say things i should never have said
went home today thinking
" what a big mouth i have"
but
forgetting, wondering why i said that
even so,
at least this has reminded to watch my mouth

slipping off my slippers
going barefooted
at carpeted places, like the classroom
has become an addition
love the feel of the different textures
different temperatures
of the floor beneath my feet
stretching my legs
accidentally brushing against the feet of others
feels quite weird though
my association with bare feet with freedom
has doubled my pleasure
of going without shoes
ahh... the sense of freedom, happiness, and release,
all these describes the feeling of being barefooted

it feels so weird without a good friend around
as if something is missing
for Jas is being missed very much
wish her well
looking forward to the day of her return

loves
Beth :)

haiz

2007-04-28T00:20:00.000+08:00

hies

realized that i am blogging more often these days.

quite upset, eh.. is very upset with a friend who i thought was close to me
a friend who i value alot alot and hold close to heart
i think that person knows that i am upset too
but nt sure if that person knows exactly what is the reason
that is why
i wanna meet up and talk

but
this person dont seem care
what a friend
i feel as if my feelings have been cheated

oh well
guess this is part of life :(

also,
beth is worried about some other people too, people she is close too

God, give me wisdom

and will myrp.edu.sg please work?

wanna snack munch on sth
wanna go do nails
want back that friend despite of everything

GOD...
there is nothing impossible in you rite? hint hint
u said u love me de...

newspapers

2007-04-21T00:11:00.000+08:00

hello

read about the massacre at a uni in US.
Bless those people.. amen
got really glued to the newspaper reports on the news
piratically 'drank' up every report about it that i could lay my hands on

So much reading got me thinking. If i were one of the students at the classes there
what are the stuff in life which i would have wanted to do, yet to do and now that death is in front of me, might not be able to do?
in my day dream, i thought of the following

- tell the world about God
- set up something in some third world country to help the people there
- help those in need, show them that God loves them
- serve God to my fullest potential
- tell my friends, each one of them how much i LOVE and treasure them
- give all my friends a big HUG
- see the beautiful world, stand in awe of the amazing scenery there are around the world
- eat delicious food that i never tried before
- got myself a pair of wedge shoes... shopping
- go out have fun, fellowship, smiles again and again and again....... with Shir and Hazel, Moses, Jasmin(and the rest), Lydia, Kor
- find out what is the highest musical note that i can reach
- bring sunshine, smiles into the lives of peoples
- have children
- live for God with renewed passion

these are things that i can think of right now
thank God that i have the honor of being alive now
would do what i want to do ( the above) in this life

lets live life each day the way God wants it
do everything we want to do in this life that there would be no regrets and things undone when we die

Beth

bleahx

2007-04-15T20:13:00.000+08:00

hie
what a time to blog especially when i am bzy after a long time of nt blogging
oh well
i MISS being ATTACHED
this equals to
i WISH i am ATTACHED

God, would you be so kind as to send Beth the right person right soon?
Beth will be good and faithful de- to God and to him

GOD...
help Beth to know when to say yes and no

God..
no matter what, i know u do all things well

Just answer this prayer

amen

xiao Beth

tired beth

2007-03-04T23:36:00.000+08:00

hello
i am FINALLY blogging
yeah man!

soon, in a few minutes time is gonna be my Kor Kor's birthday!!!
so excited, happy too!
somehow, i just feel a lot of joy for this day
yeah!!! birthdayyyyyyyy
HappY BirThDay ah Franco ge ge :) :)
reali appreciate u as my bro man
may all the days of your life be filled with the goodness and love of God

working is good
but
dont overwork
God said "work!" but
he did tell us to relac too with the sabbath
i love my daddy in heaven
so sweet, he puts our welfare as his main importance
where else can u find a law which commands rest?
ahem.. the Bible lor!
i love my Jesus more and more each day :)
this daddy of mine knows the importance of rest and work
i am so proud of him

looking around me
i constantly thank God for creating the many lovely things
like Flowers!
Beth lovessss Flowers
i am amazed that God is so imaginative to create sooo many types of flowers
all looking so nice and unique in their own special way
who else other than God can come up with such nice, special stuff?
i am so proud of God

i shall end here today

smiles to everybody!
Beth

its been 10 years since desmond

2007-02-01T00:18:00.000+08:00

hello,
a realization dawned on me ..
it has been 10 years since i had a good talk with this super super super old friend of mine
10 years , 10 years
where are you now?
hows life?

time the vast distance that makes this friendship seem so distant now
used to have so many questions
used to be so on fire for this friendship
now
all questions reduced
the blast has become a lingering flame that never dies

okie.. this is like an emo entry
haha beth is in a happy mood actually.. all smiles

shalom,
Beth

me, not office

2007-01-24T23:01:00.000+08:00

hello,
oh well, i guess that my working environment would is not really the office.
after working at an office for like about one month, the above sentence was something that i gathered.

guess i am not the office kinda gal/lady/za boa.
i would rather a job that would require me to meet people, TALK
anything that involves meeting of new people, social social
not
sitting in front of the com, and my socializing would be.. on msn? or 'talking" to the papers at hand.
hmm.. thats not quite my kinda thing

my opinion is... hey there are so many people out there, in need of help and stuff,
they all need attention, love and service.
I want to be one of those to help, serve them
combine my passion and work together...

ah... thats the kinda job i would want..
God?.. hint hint

smiles
Beth

1st post of 2007

2007-01-19T22:45:00.000+08:00

hello
this is my 1st post of 2007.
may this year be a good year with blessings to come

really no idea of how this year is gonna be like.
however, i got a better sense of what to do with the help if a friend who gave me the following questions to ponder upon.

What can i do for my family?
What can i do for my cell?
What can i do for my classmates?
What can i do for all of my friends?
What can i do for each and every sector of friends?

these really got me thinking, and i really must thank ge for giving me such thought invoking questions.
I Elizabeth, dedicate this year 2007 and every year to the lord. Shall listen to his voice and do his will, that none of his instruction will ever fail to be done. Will love God with my all, ,mind, heart and soul. All these, easier said than done, therefore, God, i will need your help.

lets treasure life and thank God for everything.
this life is short, lets not waste our time spent on it but treasure every moment.
live not For the moment
but
live IN the moment

shalom,
Beth

thanking sesssion

2006-12-29T23:42:00.000+08:00

hie
time has come for the THANKING SECTION of 2006
to be written.

reflecting back on Thanking section of 2005 blog entry this time last year, its nice to see that many have survived on the list
in fact, this year more is going to be added on.
Here are those who i wish to thank...

-God,
the great almighty daddy in heaven who has blessed and help me. God has seen, been with me through thick and thin, through the most difficult times and given new experiences.
All credit goes to the Lord
-Shir, Hazel..
and me, the E, together, we become S.H.E
my one and only clique in the world, i will treausre them forever. Hey gals, thanks for sticking by me through the most difficult times this year and for the straight in the face advice u both gave me in that 2 you-know-whats. making me face up to reality and supporting me through all
- Lydia
my best friend. thanks for all that advice and shopping expeditions haha... you and your fashion sense... hoot!! this gal can nver be replaced.. love ya lotssssssssssss
- Xiurong
although we seldom meet, i know i can always look to her for major advice and jsut about anything... for her.. the phrase 'absence make the heart grow fonder" applies.
- LaLa
that wonderful cell leader who i see as team leader. such a good friend she is, really enjoy your leading, cell really feels nice now, more team-ish to it where everyone has a part to play. Gal, la, you can always count on me.. ohoh.. thanks for your awesome friendship.. jia you!
-Ah Bau
hey man.. open up open up.. regardless.. thanks for allowigng me to crash with all like everyday during lunch and after sch and teaching me programming... you can count on me for anything and open up.. u can count on me
-Josh
you! make me like confess in a snap.. although we come from different places, with different enviroments, you are as good as a best friend for life, will always keep you in pray
- Aunty Elaine
thanks for teaching me more abt my spiritual gifting
- Rayson and Clement
just wanna say.. Thanks, for everything, those times, God's instruments. future with friendship
-Gab
thanks for teaching me how to play cards and ohoh. that i can crash your cell all the time for makan.. smil
- WeiHong
good friend this is
- Sufern
hey... ship arh!.. another about 1+ year to go! cant wait, love ya gal
- Kai Jie
that another good friend too! smiles.. NS hur hur

there are even more people, every friend that i have is precious to me, sorry if you are not on the list, (if you are on of my friends) you are treasured lots

Havent really thought abt new year resoultions but here is two..
-Get sufficent sleep and not always have many half awake days ( like today)and looking half awake..Beth wake up!
- have a even deeper, closer walk with God, this is my everyday prayer

smiles
Beth

CHRISTmas

2006-12-24T23:45:00.000+08:00

hello
Blessed Christmas!!!
may your days be filled with Love, joy and the goodness of God forever

and that was my CHRISTmas greeting to everybody :)
what you goin to do this to celebrate this joyous day?
whatever it is... i hope that you would have a good time :)

during this time of the year, somehow the spirit of giving is very evident
it really amazes me to see how God's wonderful act of love has affected so many people
for God so loves us so much that he came down from his heavenly glory to be with us
and died on the cross for us
this is the greatest gift of all time, nothing can ever beat that

however, what saddens me is that
many are celebrating Christmas although they dont know the true meaning, reason of Christmas celebrating Christmas, without knowing the significance of this day
just doing whatever is usually done to commerate this day
its like just a festival that requires the buying of presents, shopping, sales, nice food and sounds fun
CHRIST seem to be out off the picture, only said and not being thought about
this really burdens me

Christmas is all about Christ Jesus
he came down to earth and died on the cross for us
Christ gave us the greatest gift of all time :LOVE
the gifts are a bit like to symbolize that love
Christ has given us freedom, joy and many other stuff, like each new morning are gifts from God.

lets go spread the true meaning of Christmas
everybody needs to know the goodnews of the love of God!!

smiles
~Beth~
( next entry: 2006 appreciation(thanking list) and reflection)

Beth in bad mood cos of what happened at office

2006-12-15T23:08:00.000+08:00

Beth
is in a foul mood, treat me a way that i dont like
and
i will bite
...since mood foul so, dont feel like doing PP tonite

ko shi xin fei

2006-12-10T00:59:00.000+08:00

hello
wo xiang wo yao, yao,yao... yi ge hug
this is translated as
i think i want, want, want... a hug

yeah.. one of my main love langauges is Physical Touch
God, i wish i could hug you
hugs are really therapeutic...
so much that sometimes esp when i am stressed, my msn nic can be
" this beth needs a hug"
in fact, this beth is addicted to hugs
gosh... i think my love language is getting the better/worse off me
i wish... i wish.....

i am tired of being "I", thinking in "I"
its getting really boooo..
i want to think about, think in others too..
thinking in "you"
this beth is tired of thinking in "me, myself and I"
i rather be thinking in "you", in others than myself
there are so many pple, more than just me
how can i be so selfish to just think in "me"?
i will listen more and all that
God, please forgive me during the times that i have thought so much in "me" and not think the other way
God please teach me
i want to think more in the shoes, about others than myself
amen

Beth

beth"s love language

2006-11-24T15:18:00.000+08:00

The Five Love Languages

My primary love language is probably
Quality Time
with a secondary love language being
Physical Touch.

Complete set of results

Quality Time:		10
Physical Touch:		8
Acts of Service:		6
Receiving Gifts:		3
Words of Affirmation:		3

Information

Unhappiness in relationships, according to Dr. Gary Chapman, is often due to the fact that we speak different love languages. Sometimes we don't understand our partner's requirements, or even our own. We all have a "love tank" that needs to be filled in order for us to express love to others, but there are different means by which our tank can be filled, and there are different ways that we can express love to others.

Take the quiz

God, all

2006-11-17T00:18:00.000+08:00

hello,
it seems like two of my closest friends and i
took turns to emo
Beth is great.. its great to look into the future :)

today: finding the line between Faith and Feeling
sometimes,
i confess.. sometimes, when i do my Quiet Time, i end up falling asleep
sorry God
God, thank you for being so understanding and forgiving
was talking to a friend about it
this person, never falls asleep during QT and can do QT more than once a day
wow
the topic of Faith and Feeling was brought up.

ok.. many of us say that we go by feeling when doing things like
reading, writing and so on.

However, do we "FEEL" like praying?
can talking God be expressed as "Feel"?

to some, if not many, the "feel" of doing something doesnt come very often
only when the "feel" comes, then we do it
if it doesnt come, sometimes the action of doing something is forced, willed to do, if not, not done at all.
if we put prayer, interacting with God into this context
then
so to pray only when you want to? prayer is actully forced sometimes?
gosh!
then i hope that we would always have the feeling to pray!

talking about Faith
when we have faith, we believe in God whole heartedly
believing that God will answer our prayers
beliveing that God listens and believing that in God, everything is possible
being positive

how about this?
we combine A BIT of Feeling and Faith together?
can can? i am not sure this is right, correct me if am wrong
but this is my own opinion.
if we combine them both together
we can always have a good time praying and having faith at the same time

however
we should draw the line betweeen Faith and Feeling
then can have a much better QT and never doze off or anything
how to do it?
easy
pray, seek the lord
never give up

lets spend time with God :) he loves us lots!
smiles..
beth

2006-11-11T01:51:00.000+08:00

hello
yeah.. now God is the main priority
seek him first
and the rest come later

man.. i have said this many times
trying to remind myself that right now,
that the main focus is on GOD

living a life that is holy and pleasing onto the lord
is not as easy as it seems it is
easy to say,
easy to pray about
yeah..but not that easy to put into action

temptations all around
wish that was like a way
that could choose both God
and the world
at the same time
but no
only one can be choosen

the decision is to choose God
heed to his instruction
*deep breathe*
no matter how hard it is
even if it means putting what i desire aside
for some time

oh man...
God, friends.. i need your help in this

okok...
stop being self centered
think about others instead
!!!

retake of the color test

2006-11-06T00:43:00.000+08:00

hello,
i took this color test last Dec and took it again today, the results are the same as before.
Feel that the result really quite describes me. :)

Your true color is Red!
Your color is red, the color of racy sportscars, blushing cheeks, and luscious roses. Red symbolizes passion, romance, and love. So, since you're ruled by red, you probably trust your feelings more than your brain and tend to act spontaneously. If you see something you want, you go for it without thinking twice — impulsive is your middle name. You don't wait around for people to make decisions, either; you dive right in. Quite the romantic, you pay close attention to your emotions. In fact, if your heart isn't in what you're doing, you won't be satisfied. Of course, even when you do pour all your energy into the projects you tackle, your impetuous nature means your passions can shift as frequently as the wind. That's why some reds have trouble with commitment. Our advice? Next time you're feeling fickle, think before you act, if possible. You might be surprised at the results. Overall, though, it's great to be red. No one lives life more completely than you do.

What's Your True Color?
Brought to you by Tickle

idea relac place

2006-11-04T00:03:00.000+08:00

hello,

i have the image of the idea perfect place to relax in my mind

Imagine
sitting in a room
with top to down glass windows facing a nice scnenery,

with the lighting set such that it is
dimmed to your liking,

the chair that you are sitting on
is soft, comfy with alot of cushioning,

the carpet benath your feet
is lush, soft and fluffy,

on the table beside you
a glass filled with your favouriate drink,

the temperature of the room
just right to let you feel a comfortable coldness

lets not forget
a book with story so good,
once you start reading, you cant stop

awww.... thats my current idea place of relaxtion
i can just see it everytime i close my eyes
awww...

oh, did i mention, i started on my 3th diary of the year 2006
every life is like a story waiting to be told
yours too!

thank you God for everything

smiles and flowers
the girl

me... bloggin

2006-10-21T00:46:00.000+08:00

hello

in everybody's life
we have to got to face ups
we have got to face downs

the past month was fine
my class is great
lotsa nice peoples too
God,
thank you that the prayer chain worked out
God
thank you that you have blessed me
thus far

through mistakes made,
lessons are learnt
dont avoid reality
just face it

i just keep eating,
nonstop
wish i could hire a 24 hour chef to cook for me
sigh..
but no money
but
hiring a 24 hour chef would be a total waste of cash
whatever
just bring the sushi, KFC, soup, and...
show me the menu!
this girl here wants ONLY 1 everything there
rahhh!!!

snacking on tidbits everyday in class
ain't healthy
but this girl here just wants to munch
eat first.. think later

thank God for food and the wonderful munchies

i love my phone
it is very faithful
very strong
for these few days
this girl here
kept dropping it
ACCIDENTLY
from here,
her phone exhibited its faithfulness
by being able to start up
never spoil
the Operating System still working

this girl rembers that
not too long ago
there was this someone
who said would buy for her
a casing for her phone
cos she always drop it
what a lovely memory
she wishes that it wld never have ended

thank God for my phone
thank God for everything

smiles
the girl

sway Sept

2006-10-04T23:44:00.000+08:00

Hello!
i am back! yep
this Sept was.. ok
BIG things happened
things i wish never happened, sorry, but this entry abit the negv..
so not me lah, but
heres the "sway" things that happened...

-the breakup
-wisdom tooth removed.. ouch
-specs broke into HALF
-left SA

darn, or should i saY what the F***. its fISH lah ok
not vulgar haha
what an expensive mth man

About leaving SA, well,
in a sense, its like i take it as God's indication to really move on.
ok, i of course felt abit sad, after all having spent 1 1/2 years there
but must really thank that IG for the experiences and training that i really benfitted from during the times there. had much fun too
no hard feelings

what a month
God, please bless the rest of the months that they would be good
i belive that they will
God i put all my trust in you
bless everybody else too
God, i didnt like sept 2006
cos everything kept crashing down
got after effects somemore

ohoh.. i must thank all the friends who were there and supported me through it all
like Shir and Hazel and Lydia

Hope, pray and believe that my new class would be great with class unity.
The peoples there seems nice, are nice haha
oh! pretty too!

This Beth now has shorter hair,
indication of a new start

God, i put the future into your hands
please make it good
amen

PF. chalet

2006-09-21T21:47:00.000+08:00

hello
just came back frm Poly Forum chalet
super tired lah for the past two days
i barely slpt for 3 hrs in total for both night
no regrets abt it
really had loads of fun!

those days at PF really opened up to me another world
where general and world issues are disucsscused
the kind of topics that have to use the brain and
provide lotsa room for discussion
just that kinda thing i like
they talked about the Singapore issues about things like gobalization and the aging world and all that
intersting..
those general issues... use da brain! hehe

oh oh my entire subteam learned and performed the TP mass dance
its like really fun and is quite cute too
the mass dance really made many pple smile
lallala that song
and for the first time we had Dinner and Dance during a chalet!!!
hoot!
all the gals dress very pretty pretty with make up and
all the guys look good too
kept yum-seng-ing alot with my sub team..

haha oh oh.. Must thank Jean for being my fab roomie and being a great friend duing PF Sub-team 1 rwks!!
Abby for being a good friend
Mervyn.. the jie mei of sorts who gave some words of wisdom and caused much laughter
the rest of sub team 1.. alot of pple like Angel, Janice, amanda, kai, Alyssa, ardi and lots more!
hoot!!

thats Jean, my dear roomie and friend
with Mervyn.. the jie mei of sorts :P
with Abby :)

bye Rayson dear

2006-09-18T01:14:00.000+08:00

after a hard time sometime i decided
perhaps setting people free is easier
than keeping it all up within myself

its sometimes better to stop giving somebdy else headaches over thinking
about something
by making a decision for people
as much as it hurts
if it means setting you free and seeing you happy being with the one on your heart now,
i do

sacrifice is something that you do for people you really like
its easy to say
brings heartaches sometimes
very not easy to do

as painful and as hard very as it maybe,
this girl rather be the one who make that scary jump
than you
in this way,
people can be at ease, and live a better life

after all
God also made a HUGE sacrifice for
us
who he loves so much leaving his heavenly splendor,
coming down to earth by dying on the cross

hope that this does not offend you
and for your info,
there is always the "return" button i have reserved for you press
so anytime,
you can press it

but no matter what
although we are no longer together in that sorta way,
i will always be there,
supporting you no what
trust me on that

i pledge my alliance of being a good good friend to you always...

setting you free, letting you go...
.the girl

fasting frm guys

2006-09-10T22:57:00.000+08:00

hello
so funny lah yesterday after service and alter call
i decided had a mad thought
ahem

i decided to...
Fast from...
GUYS!!!

ok that might have been the first time anybdy heard a human say this before i think
then i told Sufern and the rest
then they were like
" you cant fast frm guys unless you locked yourself up in a room and not go out or something"
cos...
guys are everywhere!

and the result is...
no i decided that
i am not going to fast from guys
its like not possible and besides my dad is a guy too! (of course)

what have been said so far this is like prob the JOKE of the DAY
but it did happen
ok now.. laugh.. haha.. yeah
it was like SuPPoSEDd to be funny abit

anyhow, Spending time with God is very impt
we should all like spend quality time with him
put him first in everything
just give him ALL our troubles no matter how many, how much troubles we have

you troubled,.. i troubled too
so the best thing we can do
smile, trust me, it really helps to brighten up the day no matter how sian one is feeling

i am sure Kenny, Sufern and the whole bunch of them
must endured my nonsense yesterday
hmm.. but i think i was talking some kind of sense though tooo
thks you pple, i am sane lah :)
reali had a good time :)

God, i need you!
speak God, ah Elizabeth is here to listen and obey

2006-09-05T22:51:00.000+08:00

removed wisdom tooth day
pain it may be
praise the lord for his love
his mercy
his assurance that he is always with me

this pain
how can it be compared
to what God has endured?
the pain he had when he was on the cross
our troubles
our whines
that he puts upon his shoulders

when we hurt
the lord feels for us
cries with us
God went through so much
just to see us smile

all through the process
and the after effect
the thought that God suffered so much for us
and this cannot be compared to all that
was the light at the end of the tunnel

let this be a testimony
of the Lord's love
grace
mercy
goodness
which lasts forever

but somebdy
was
not
there...
even so
i bless that person
frm the heart

thank God for friends
the concern they impart
the caring words they gave
really touched my heart

heres a big
THANK YOU
to them
really appreicate them friends
alot
may blessings
smiles
love
always be with you all

...the girl

today is supposed to be our 1st mth anniversary

2006-08-28T11:30:00.000+08:00

here sits a girl
caught somewhere in the transistion of being a girl and a lady
feeling so frail
leaning against the rail

somebdy important to her seems to be so near yet so far
she calls out to God
and he replys her with visions
she wonders what does a sunrise mean
it is so beautiful after all
holding hands what a beautiful thing too

"God" she says
that somebody means alot to me
i tried my best
trying to make it work
being utterly devoted to God and that smbody
why must this be happening to us?

this girl
hopes
prays
wishes
yearns
that everything would be back to normal

this gal want to tell somebdy that
this decision is the Lord's
remember seek thee first the kingdom of God
she cherishes, really like that somebdy alot

wishing...
praying......
longing.........

the girl

not in a good mood

2006-08-27T00:11:00.000+08:00

hello
sometimes, i really dislike, not sometimes,
i reali dislike to ctrl-c, ctrl-v a smile onto my face
when i am sad, no mood at all inside

reali disliked to be ingored especially by somebody
it hurts, really hurts alot
especially if this person is close to you
hurts till i start to cry
but i dont cry in public if i can help it, and i generally can
however, sometimes, i do cry in public like that time during morning prayer(but its God, so dats another matter)

wish want that this person would be back to normal asap
means alot to me that person

My Birthday!!!

2006-08-22T23:44:00.001+08:00

hellooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!!!!!!!!

today is...
my
BIRTHDAY!!!!!! yeah
Happy Birthday to Elizabeth, me
>> thk u thk u
hehe :P

i really had a happy birthday, finally, a birthday that is HAPPY.. lots of smiles :)
really thank God for a birthday like this

went to class and they suprised me with a lovely present, it was really cute, all of them!
the class had a last meal together at school, the almost everybdy had western food and chicken too
meet Alarice for lunch snack, had a great time with her
saw this very nice cow
and heres the happy happy part...
i had birthday dinner with Shirley and Hazel (SHE) at New York New York, the food not bad, had one whole small chicken(but was still abit hungry), really had fun with them, was really glad to be able to meet my two fave gals and have a meal with them on this special day. these two gals know me, my taste so well that they know,got excatly what i want, stuff that are so me lah in my style.
S.H.E ~~maybe we friends for all time, love u gals lots!

Also, i wanna thank everybody who wished me a Happy Birthday, i really appreciate it alot. :)

Ate Chicken 3 times today and now my stomah is filled with Chicken and i even ate a whole entire chicken with i was with my SHE for dinner lah!

I wanna thank God for blessing me today and always, i can always count on God no matter what.

i end with a song dedicated to God and i mean whatever it says.

Take my life and let it be

Take my life, and let it be consecrated, Lord, to Thee.
Take my moments and my days; let them flow in ceaseless praise.
Take my hands, and let them move at the impulse of Thy love.
Take my feet, and let them be swift and beautiful for Thee.

Take my voice, and let me sing always, only, for my King.
Take my lips, and let them be filled with messages from Thee.
Take my silver and my gold; not a mite would I withhold.
Take my intellect, and use every power as Thou shalt choose.

Take my will, and make it Thine; it shall be no longer mine.
Take my heart, it is Thine own; it shall be Thy royal throne.
Take my love, my Lord, I pour at Thy feet its treasure store.
Take myself, and I will be ever, only, all for Thee.

smiles
Beth

My Birthday!!!

2006-08-22T23:44:00.000+08:00

wooo alalal

2006-08-16T23:14:00.000+08:00

hello!!!
i am supposed to be studying
gosh but am doing something else instead
lemme see i am 4 tasking? i am currently blogging, diarying, studying, chatting
all at the same time. shiok rite?
thank God i am a female.

i must really thank God for his grace and his blessings
credit goes to God everything nice that has happened
all that he has given me, talents, friends, joy, peace,
i try to use for his glory.
dont get me wrong, i dont use friends, i bless them
and of course i know that generally all of my Christian friends would want to be used by God for his glory and to pass on his blessings onto others.

God, i want to be used by you in everyway
God, just use me lah
this Elizabeth is availiable for use, got no expiry date de, and no dateline, no restriction de
i trust you God to provide everything
Faith and Trust is what i need.
in fact, these two are very impt in relationships
not forgetting God's assurance of his never failing LOVe <3
the last will be the first

suddenly i got inspiration, and thus... what i call the Elizabeth's cow theory
a herd of cows eats grass and other stuff that the farmer gives
the cows eats from young till old pratically the same thing (boring)
as the cows grow up, they are being observed by the farmers
when the cows are older, and time is ripe, they get like flitered to their various jobs
>> to me, this stage is like God showing us our purpose in life, what he wants us to do, to be, seperating us

their various jobs vary
some cows go into the job of providing milk
some cows go into the job of breeding the future of the cow herd
some cows sigh... are set aside to be killed and eaten, become beef steak (poor cows)
>> this is like when God reveals his purpose for us

every job that are allocated, will benfit somebody
to these cows, people is their God, humans feed them and all that
>> just like God Jesus teaches, trains us, feeds us

for every job they do, it will be of benfit to some humans
providing milk will quench the thirst of people
breeding the future generation of cows will also mean that the supply of be beef, milk and cow decendents will not run out
cows to be slaughtered will provide many humans with food, make the hungry no longer hungry
>> after all that training, whatever that we would be doing go back to God and his people, making use of what we have been been blessed with to be a blessing to others. regardless of how is it done, what role we gonna play, we will still be serving God, only that we have got to realize that we are actually doing that and sometimes we dont.

the other than their fellow cows, the cows on the farm only know humans
in their simple mindset, since the farmers provide them with everything
farmers(humans) must be God

>therefore, God is our farmer (humans) and we serve him. all the training that he gives us will one day be put into use.

and so this is Elizabeth's Cow theory done with a sudden inspiration.
live in peace

smiles
Beth

2006-08-03T23:42:00.000+08:00

hello
long time since i blogged.
life has been relatively good.
found this really nice nice friend who is reali lah... bao ka liao
Thank God for everything.

SA elections came out
many of my friends got in
am really happy for them and i hope that they will do a good job with the leadership responsibilty given to them
i believe they will and also God would be with them in everything they do, guilding them through
my long time friend didnt get in, but am glad that now, he got more time to spend servin the Lord in church and have more time to spend with God too. Also, glad that now he can have more time for himself now.

i also want to tell another friend that
let not anyone bring us down
God is in control and
lets learn from the story of of that wise old man Moses before the Pharoh
p.s i think that my cow is reali cute lor!

saw my dear Hazel, really glad to see her again.
miss that dear gal and Shirley much.

shall blog another time

with a smile,
...Beth

God, Hug

2006-07-23T15:33:00.000+08:00

hello,

today had a vision of God opening his arms, giving us each a hug, reassuring us of his unfailing LOVE
it really made me want to go on my knees and just praise him.
i really really love hugs, what could be more awesome than a hug from God?
God, thanks for your big HUG

had a super great week last week
looking fwd to the new future start soon...

We are each given different gifts
let us use each of our gifts for the glory of the Lord
its sooo cool lah!
to think that each of us have our own unique combi of gifts

have presents to make
its really feels nice making crafts with my own imagination
July is a bzy birthday mth... oh...
haha

Repentance and Goliahs

2006-07-16T22:05:00.000+08:00

hello
yesterday the sermon talked about Goliahs

the pastor said that everyone of us is going to face a Goliah soon.
woah
another Goliah
didnt i just pass a time of GoliahS?
was quite afraid
but i believe that when the Goliah comes, God will be there seeing me through
he showed me in a vision before that he would carry me
so
no worries! :)

i believe that God is there in everything we do
its just wheather we consult him, realize it or not
God is always there
watching over us
helping us through every Goliah we face

i am so glad that i am back in the safe arms of God

another thing Repentance
was doing the 40 day fast, it taked about repentance
really struck me about how God's spotlight can really reach to your very core, very soul
i feel spiritually naked under his spotlight
super powerful
heard/ talked about the topic of Repentance 3 times last week
...During QT, chatted abt it with Gabs, and during sermon yesterday

maybe we should like take some time to reflect on what we should repent off.
ask God, he knows everything about you
PRAY
let your soul be cleansed
and trust be, you feel Shoik after that!

feeling much better

2006-07-14T21:17:00.000+08:00

hello
okies!
These few days has been really good
despite being sick
i thank God that right now, the worst is over, no longer on MC!!!
yeah!!!

Am on the way back to God
it feels really good to be back home with the Lord!!!
niceeeeeeeeeee

ever since being un-sick and going back to sch
its like generally everything seems to be going on well and i really thank God for that

Got to know really nice people too!
and guess what?
now i have got to know Rayson whos is the go home person too!
bao ka liao man! haha
like being with that person

Acapella competition next Thu, so excited!!
Got audience lehz!
oh man.. i simply love the stage... well... kind of

this is something new... i decided to have a TAGBOARD the last time i did have a tagboard was like i think more than 2 yrs ago therefore, go tag, come on.. go.. go... hey.. no Peer Pressure involved in this tagboard making decision *winks*

And oh
God gave us talents that we should always use to bless the people around us
therefore, dont keep ya talents to ya self;
use them to bless others too!

in addition...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY LYDIA!!! ~HUGs~

emo person

2006-07-10T21:45:00.000+08:00

hello,
these few weeks i realize, i have been very emo.
things that i have gone through, has not been so easy on me.

am tryin to get back to God, reali.
Home is in the Lord, so God, i am on the way home!

seriously lah...
i wish for a shoulder to lean, cry on... thats all
dont any how think.. i am open to both sexes hor.

am sick right now.
pray that i would get well soon.

why do tears come so easily?... gosh.. i think i am getting really too emo already. darn.

p.s Ge, thanks for the choc corissants... they are really yummy. love eating em lots

31 june- crying, but nobdy sees know

2006-07-01T00:20:00.000+08:00

i am NOT a kid
i have grown up already
i have experienced more than u think i have
dont under estimate me
i am friendly to make everybody feel at ease

__________________________________
here i am
neeeding some spiritual guildance, a shoulder to lean, cry on, feeling desolate

is there anybody there?

no..

freak it man

go go, do your own stuff.. i am here.. dont worry, i should be ok... just trying to surive on my own might as i did before

even the strong has their times of weakneess

dark...
transparent droplets...

June 25- treat me seriously

2006-06-26T00:25:00.000+08:00

hello,

it has be bugging me for sometime already.
i just dont wish to be thought of as a sister to or be treated as "little"..

it seems that i am always end up being treated like a sister, younger sister, or be thought of as "little", "xiao".
ok, when i was younger i used to like that sort of attention, but now that i am older and have like Juniors under me i start to find it irritating and quite dont really enjoy that kind of attention, perception, treatment, sth like that lah.

now, i want to be treated SERIOUSLY.
oh yes, seriously.
like my age
not like a yonger person.

ok, i know i look young, some people say 16.
but i cant like er... change the way that my face features make look much yonger right? i also dont want to anyway. its a privillage to look young. thank God.
However, that doesnt mean that i be treated like a sister, or as "little".

this Beth is a young lady of 19 wor.

oh my part, i would also try to be like also be more my like age, more mature.
oh,
and everybody has their own different unique personaility, character.
i like being me and will always be me, i love me
ahem
" we must love ourselves before others can love us"
if you are not comfortable with yourself, how can others be as comfortable with you?
a good self imgae starts from within. dont be a fake.

just treat me SERIOUSLY.
i am not a "xiao mei" any longer.

btw
the name is Elizabeth, call me beth, liz, eliza, elizabeth, eliz.
not anything else.

smiles to everybdy.

remember... treat me seriously

may 30- i miss SHE

2006-05-29T23:40:00.000+08:00

hello,
was just sitting slacking chatting,
and

i miss
S. H. E!!!

Hazel, it has been quite a long time since we 3 gals got to go out together.
miss your spunk and YOU

Shirley, loved your powerpoint desgins and slides.. kinda, miss the times the 3 of us went to toliet together too.
miss your listening ear and YOU

miss the IMH like crazy-ness we had.
miss so many things.
gosh!
hey S and H of SHE, you both gals will always be in my heart.
Friends always!
lets go out sometime :)

may 29- the closure of a diary

2006-05-29T00:02:00.000+08:00

may 29 2006 (Sun)

tonight, i am going to close a diary, as in written diary cos i literally write in a diary.
that diary is like full, almost no more space to write in it already, therefore, i am going to close it tonight.

maybe that is why i seldom update my blog cos i diary instead.

this diary contains very special memories, memories that i would cherish forever, will NeVeR
ever forget. maybe next time when i am old and look back throught the diary, i would relieve those wonderful moments again as if they were yesterday and feel as if i am a teenager again.

i belive that to keep diaries is to "immortalize" those memories and so that the story of one's life would be forgettened just like that without record.

if it were not for my friends, and the people around me, there would have been nothing much to write about. therefore, i want to thank everybody for just being you.
each and every person is him or her self, a story to be told and a character of somebody else's story.

as i close that diary and kiss it with remembrance ,
i hope and pray that the next dairy of mine would be one filled with happiness and lessons to be learnt, and of course, the work of God.

write your story...
learn from your past, present

25 May 06

2006-05-25T23:52:00.000+08:00

Hello
it has been a long time since i last updated.
supposed to be doing some work, but am blogging instead.
so the rest of the this blog is like pratically not so relevant now.

As you can see, i changed the blog skin.
its feminine and abit dark. Just nice

sometimes, i wonder, where is the Beth that iam?
where has the nicer and more holy Beth gone?

i am just quite lost.

has this Beth gone dark?
i hope not.

face it, there is the other side of me.

even so, elizabeth is still here :)

anybody?
peace

2006-04-24T13:24:00.000+08:00

24 April'06

When i think of colors, maybe i can describe myself as somebody who is has colorful patterns, colors in the foreground but a dark background. Something like that. Dark. I wonder how come its like that too.
Yeah, i like black and white, photos with 2 colors, black and blue/red. Emo shots.

you can influence people without knowing it.
i must thank God for everything, there is a reason for everything.

2006-03-08T22:35:00.000+08:00

yeah, "our students never sleep in Lectures" cos there are no lectures...

but

they do sleep during end-of-the-day Presentations... sometimes :P

8 March '06

now is the holidays...again...

good lah holidays, but i dont like to be free, too free with no $$! haha

so far got that conference at church next week thats all,

wonder if i should dedicate this holidays to "chasing God" or doing other stuff like working (if theres job), oh well... whatever comes i just take lorz, i think i can do both too! :)

PD0106a

i shall miss you people alot alot

thanks for all the wonderful memories

all the smiles, SBs, SHE and gaming guys... "wheres my mana?" and the rest including those few guys who dont really dota although they do dota and the rest of the gals who are so fab and make my day.

Everybody was great, is great and will contunie to be great. yup yup

you guys rwk!!!

RP gonna move to Woodlands

some things i will miss abt Tanglin campus

- the convient location to town

- the buying of soybean from That store in the moring

- the convience from there to Church and Church office

- the quite round tables

- the almost always seeing some people i know when walking around campus

- its hard to believe, but i actually abit miss the "smoking road" between Tanglin and Phoneix park despite the smoke

- believe it or not, ghost stories of both Tanglin and Phoneix park

still got more lah, but this is what i can come up with currently

ahh... those memories. God is Great

smiles and bye!!

broken red slipper

2006-02-18T14:00:00.000+08:00

my broken red slipper

17 Feb'06

Today my fave red slipper broke. Oh dear!

Really liked it alot esp the color + its wedges!

Since i broke it in school, i had to go home half bare footed. Walked to the bus stop and to home on the train half shoe-less.

i know its like so "oh my gosh!" to go around half bare footed, but i felt that God was using this to speak to me, teach me.

As i was walking around like that, it occured to me that during Jesus's times, people had to walk bare footed from one place to another when they had to travel about.

I think sandals was invented then already lah, but thats not the matter, the quality of foot wear must have been worse than our present kind by alot alot.

the point is that if Jesus and his disciples had walked like that to heal, preach to those peoples he , they must have walked alot. By then, his feet would have had lots of blisters and sorts. ouch. He sacrificed so much for us, love us so much.

That no matter how far, how long the distance, how pain it is, he did it out of love for us.

Suddenly it occured to me, that if i want to be like Jesus, i had to do the same, go bare footed, sacrifice, go as a servant, feel as he felt, not caring about what the world has to say, but what God has to say.

What is all these compared to his love? his grace? his marvel?

What did i feel when i was walking about like that? i felt great. i felt that i was experiencing the joy of the lord. the lesson that was taught though this is priceless. this is part of what it takes to be different for the lord.

i still remember a bit of this song which goes

"let me see through Jesus's eyes

let me feel how he would feel

let me love as he loved and

gave as he gave

oh lord make me more like you"

i am not sure what is the name of this old song, but i mean it when i sing, say out the lyrics.

Lord, i mean it with all my heart.

thank you for the lesson lord.

P.s the mrt station floor at Jurong is actually quite cooling :P

fun DAy!

2006-02-13T15:39:00.000+08:00

Sweet from XiuRong that she got frm Japan, love her lots!
hello.

yesterday was great, meet Pastor and family who me and my 03 indo team meet during the trip. they rock! Had a great luching, listening to what Pastor and his wife said.

I pray and hope to have a family like them in the future. That is one very loving and Godly family, Pastor and his wife still love each other alot and they are still as close as ever even though they married with lovely children. They even go out for walks with each other still! Their children love and have a good bond with each other too. Its hard to find a family like that these days. May God bless their family to be so loving always.

Conclusion: the whole family is made up of God, love and unity.

and and!

meet Xiurong! yup, my highlight of the day. really miss her. She is my good good friend who i have not seen for a long time. the last time i saw and really talked to her was such a long time ago,.. She is sorta like a jie jie to me. Shall meet up with her again and...

MUST organize China team '02 gathering! (note to self) Never meet for 3 yrs+ already.

I am trying to move on with life and getting back to God. not easy, takes time, but am trying.

might new layout

2006-02-09T14:22:00.000+08:00

hello,

quite long time no blogged i know. yup
i am deciding on a new blog desgin currently, therefore, this beautiful blue daisy that you see
up there, might be gone soon.

I will miss you blue daisy :/
However, since i am still looking around, so the change is not immediate lor. :P

Another thing.
if you realize, the contents in this blog is not like blogs of your friends lah.
like u know, write about their everyday life? yup
for me, i give an over all summary, but now i am deciding if i should use that style, method of writing. Other wise, my blog would be like yup, quite boring cos i also seldom update.

Remember i wrote in one of my previous blogs that i will blog more often?
well,i am trying to do that lor. keep my word :)

Oh yeah, i write in my diary too, so i hope that this kinda explains it.

dont really know what to write today, but i really wish to say to a particular person...
Please forgive, dont let whatever happened affect our close friendship.
yup!

GOd bless!

darn

2006-01-30T18:22:00.000+08:00

Jan 30'06

oh oh
i think i need a new more wacky lifestyle
my diploma is filled with guess what...
GIRLS!!!!!
horrors -->

girls girls girls everywhere!
ok
i need a new more wacky colorful lifestyle, enviroment
yup, not so much girls, more guys will do me fine
nah, i am not guy crazy
just that, sometimes, too many girls suffocats me, sorry if i have offened girls who are reading this. i am not baised to a certain sex either.
actually, most girls are nice yup yup love them lots
and so are guys, most of them

where can i find a new lifestyle? i want a wacky one which is quite the abit differnent frm what i havenow, with lots of colors and fun!

i wanna tell somebody out there in this world that
love is something that cannot be taken away. love is timeless
people can come by but love will always still remain
beautiful memories which will be cherished forever
move on with life, but remember... remember... the promises and words i have given and said

yup yup
sometimes when people think
got good and got not say bad lah, but people sometimes end up hurting themselves
because of this
i know thinking helps,
but the last thing i want is you my dear friend, getting hurt
the reason why people think is because they want to straighten out their thoughts
make decisions, etc
and i apporve of thinking! everybody must think, have to think hor
glad that you C are thinker my dear dear friend :)

to me, being pratical is good, so is being frank
thats why sometimes what i say may offend people,i am sorry, although i am learning tact still
settle down your feelings

life has to go on
but sometimes, i realize that what people wear on the outside is just a mask
thats what i realize
i think you understand

will everybody who is wearing a mask please sit down? i understand

i shall end with this sentence
Friends who can withstand the storms are worth more than gold and all my blissful dreams

1st 2006 blog

2006-01-23T12:31:00.000+08:00

23 Jan 2006

hello!
this is the first blog of 2006
right now i am having my 2nd breakout, feeling bored
hmm... what should i blog about? no particular thing i wanna discuss abt leh
so therefore, i shall anyhow today lor

last week lor, i found a very nice song its called...
Thank You by Ray Boltz

i have been trying to find this song for a very the long time already lor
the last time i heard of this was when i was on my 2004 mission trip.
Its a really touching song.
When i heard that song, woah, i almost cried
or hey did i cry? i think i did, doesn't matter lah
that song is really beautiful lor
it made me wanna stand up and make a difference now
From it, i realized that even a small little action can help, change somebody's life.
taught me much.

Thank you God

now my life is in a bliss
things has never been better
wonder what God is doing
everything that i have asked God for sometime,
it is given to me
i have:
> a clique (S/H/E)
> a very good friend mr oink
> a prayer partner
> a smooth bro-sis connection with ah ge ge
> a great great class
> good friends
> am living in peace and happinesess for more than a mth without much downs
everything is gg fine and smooth
> Christian/english speaking classmates( opitional but given)
> the sense of belonging

i am so over whelmed
this cant be true!
God, is this for real?
ok this is real

i shall, am cherishing every moment of this
heres a HUGE
THANK YOU
to all those people who made this possible like Hazel, Shirley and Joshua ,mr oink, lydia and and lots of other peoples like my cell too
THANK YOU GOD

lets hope that this can last for as long as possible.

this feels like another thanking session again
but its from the heart

i have a craving for KFC now
so yummy, so delicious, so tasty, so nice
shall go grab gobble KFC soon, yup soon

My latest 3 fave food: KFC, ba kua, sushi
put them in front of me, i eat
so beware!
the hungry person is here!
wahahaha hur hur :P

ok i am being quite nonsense today, sorry :/

i shall end blog here
take care and bless ya!

2005 II

2005-12-27T09:28:00.000+08:00

27 Dec '05
hello~

was reading other blogs, realized that most blogs describes about how were their lives.
Therefore conclusion :
normal blog contents --> about your life
abnormal blog contents --> not really about your life, maybe about other stuff like aliens( never seen that kind of content before though )

But really lah, the general purpose of a blog is to express thoughts to the world.
therefore, any content also can, but cannot scold the govt much and sth like that otherwise got the govt running after you. Just look at the newspapers :P Got how many people kana already.
At least the actions taken are made know to all peoples reading the papers.
Maybe its to warn people that ... if they write stuff, better be quite careful what they write, not too political stuff and sth like that lah.
Hail Singapore not Hail Hilter. Hail God!

2006 is coming, its just like a new baby about to be born... awww <<>>
i simply LOVE huggies.
Ok i decided, that i would try to blog more in 06 lorz, maybe add a tagboard also. see first

This week seems to go by so0 slowly.
I still thought that today is Wed, but no its Tue.
OH! today is Tue arh! OK that meaning that ... this time next week, i be at school.
tada!
Looking fwd to going back to class, but er... can minus the work? pls?
Do i hear a NO? oh... pls lah... NO again? kk lah... i shall go school and do school work.
This not like ordering food, can dont want this, add that, change something, dont want something.
This is one fixed "set meal" cannot change de, permant de. bo bian
But... its ok :) i accept it.
actually, this "set meal" is really nice leh. yupz! teamwork is fun! and so is work.
After school can also go find some oink people(wink) to eat at somewhere else. hehe

Is anybody hungry?! Hope that i have not made any body hungry with my prev pragh.
Can go makan de u know?
oh wait.
God is the Bread of life, so pray. :P sorry God

Now for the thanking section of 2005
> God
Without you God, i dont know how i can survive ever
>I must really thank S/H/E for being such great friends:)
love you gals all lots! you know who u are
> my prayer partner
thanks for being such an encouragement and joy, great great friend till the heavens
> lydia
you are the best gal! love ya loads! my special girl
> ah gege
thanks for teaching me somethings in life, really learnt somethings
from all that had happened
> All the STEPpers from my batch
you all were really great, miss and treasure those days
> xiurong
thanks for being always there and my good friend though we seldom meet
> mr pig (sorry ;P)
for being a good friend, may our friendship last looooooonnnnnngggggggg

I also got others to thank too, but if i thank all peoples, my list be very long. like a grandmother story
But dont worry
ahem! ...
Conclusion: i want to thank all my friends, all my classmates

thats all for this blog.
maybe i will blog sooon

signing off... Elizabeth :)

your true color is...

2005-12-23T16:36:00.000+08:00

Results of a personaility testhttp://web.tickle.com/color/

Red
Your color is red, the color of racy sportscars, blushing cheeks, and luscious roses. Red symbolizes passion, romance, and love. So, since you're ruled by red, you probably trust your feelings more than your brain and tend to act spontaneously. If you see something you want, you go for it without thinking twice — impulsive is your middle name. You don't wait around for people to make decisions, either; you dive right in. Quite the romantic, you pay close attention to your emotions. In fact, if your heart isn't in what you're doing, you won't be satisfied. Of course, even when you do pour all your energy into the projects you tackle, your impetuous nature means your passions can shift as frequently as the wind. That's why some reds have trouble with commitment. Our advice? Next time you're feeling fickle, think before you act, if possible. You might be surprised at the results. Overall, though, it's great to be red. No one lives life more completely than you do.

no blogged for long

2005-12-19T11:20:00.000+08:00

19 Dec'05
hello

made precious good friends this year which is something that is really yeah lah, good.
these people are and will always be cherished.

3 main segments/parts of 2005
--> STEP programme
--> entering RP, sem 1
--> sem 2
All these are headings of the the main parts of 2005 which i have catergorized. those contain a story.

Weird year i must say. with unexpected turns and happenings. with new experiences, ups & downs, and more

to 2005 " you were weird, but i loved 2005 alot."
to 2006 " hello little one, i wonder how are you like"

yup and thats about it.
i can be contacted @ peacelovinbirde@yahoo.com.sg

bless ya!

the eleveth hour

2005-11-05T23:53:00.000+08:00

Nov6'05

THe eleveth Hour

Hello,
long time no blog-ed.

Sometimes, i wonder, why do so many people wait till the eleventh hour to do the stuff that they really want to do? The exams are coming, i wonder how many out of so many people are really prepared to face those important papers that mean alot, qualification wise. I believe that there be alot of people rushing through, trying their best to get as much as possible into their heads for the exams.

In life, i realize that we always do many things at the eleventh hour. Take for example, the deadline of something important is due like 2 mths later, but i realize that many people usually start, in Singaporean lang, "cheong-ing"( rushing, plus sometime panicking) near the deadline, if not, when near the deadline, would realize that actually, alot has not been done yet.

Seriously, i think the world is always rushing, but thats another topic.

A big example would be death. Ok, imagine that you are going to die, at your death bed, do you have things to say to various peoples? things that you have not said yet, but its too late to tell them how you feel for them, tell them that you love them. However, its abit too late to do that.
Sometimes, life is just cruel, face it, when there is not even an eleventh hour to use.
Then i was also thinking. What if one day my cell was to split up? oh my, that thought really makes me ... Would people try their best to get to know more of fellow members who they dont really know asap? Its when the realization that hey, a group that is part of my life is going to split, break up, dis-band or whatever the words. By then it be the eleventh hour(to me). Would it be late to start really cherishing cell time when it is going to end soon? think about it.
This context can also be applied when its like you know that you are going to die(touch wood) in like soon, have only a number of days left to live. Then only then you start cherishing your life, with the limited number of days you have left. Isn't it abit too late to treasure life only now and not before? Maybe you might feel desperate wanting to alot of other things that you have not done yet.

The eleventh hour i have come to realize, usually comes smack in the face in dismaying reality when we sometimes want to do something IMPorTant. Today, in cell, there was this discussion about people waiting until the "grand" age of 80, to accept Christ when they have known of his existence all along, at an age that i would call the eleventh hour. Why wait until then to accept Christ? When they about to die, then acknowledge the truth? Its to me, really a loss, for they cannot really enjoy God's goodness, love and all his wonders in their life. Coming to think about it, i realize that most of the Bible is really about how God wants to bless, gulide, protect, instruct us, about glorifying his name along with many other things. Imagine, if they had accepted earlier, they would really have enjoyed God, served him and above all, experience the father's love that is so amazing while they are alive. I admit to to me, they are missing out in alot of wonderful things. sorry.
However, God's love is still the same no matter when we come to believe in him, no matter how long we have been believers. He is a God whose love is unconditional.

Therefore, Try not to wait till the 11th hour to do things.
Cherish what you have now, dont wait till the last minute to discover that there is alot of things yet to be done.
i am sorry for talking alot about death here, but death is to me a good illustration.
i think we live in a Cheong-ing( the panicking/rushing defination) country sometimes. hehe.

God bless! :)

Freaked out!

2005-08-21T22:11:00.000+08:00

2o Aug'05
Hellow...
today, i am sooo FREAKED OUT
i had an encounter with something. I am seriously not sure if it is from God or not.
Well what happened was that i was doing my Quite Time or QT this morning. Ok, normal la
i sang songs and prayed for understanding about what i was going to read today.
I just finished the book of Luke, so i am starting John today. I as reading reading, then decided to read again to read that portion that i was reading to like understand better lah.
The verse that caught my eye was John1:7. When i read that, the word "witness" and "testify" caught my eye.

I read that verse again and again, but i was feeling scared bcos i felt that, knew that it was what i had to do. And then, i started trembling. All the while when i read that verse, i felt that i should turn to my fave chpt of the Bible. Is 43. When i turned to Is 43, straight away, v.10 of that chapt. 1 BIG word: witness. Then, at the side, at the notes (i am using a study bible of QT) testify.

When i saw that, although i was already trembling, i started to tremble even more, could not reali stop myself from doing that. Its like crying when God touches you. I could not stop, even the words that came out off my mouth were shaky although i ment it to be normal. I had never trembled until like that before. I kinda liken the trembling to be in winter without warm clothing. So scary. I was there alone, doing QT, trembling non stop, could not help it. I felt so freaked out.

This is the first time something like that happened to me as in trembling la.
Now, i am wondering is that from God or something else. At that time, when i was trembling, i kinda forgot to call out in the name of Jesus to stop that, but i guess that it is just human, when reali faced with the "danger" all the protection just forgottened suddenly.
This was so scary, after that when i calmed down, i called people to pray for me. It was really comforting. Thks jie :)

I really dont know, that could be a few things to me, a spiritual attack, God, or, maybe issit just me or... ...? God, please speak to me, tell me oh lord. I am here, speak and i will listen, yes, i will dear Daddy in heaven. It was so scary. Daddy!

words r.

2005-08-13T00:10:00.000+08:00

12 Auf
Hellow.

Also i feel quite bad today because i like er... talked bad about other churches. Ok, this is not my first time doing this. Just that sometimes, i am being straight foward here. Sometimes, i think that other church trying to 'snatch member'. Ok, this is the wrong mindset lah, sorry. i know that they are not.

Its not that i dont know my facts, i know, i know lots about that God and churches. However, i never always/usually do what i am supposed to do which is to not go like go against fellow churches. i am so bad. i had this issue for a while, praying, repenting about it, asking God to remove these wrong thoughts that are not even supposed to be there, giving me a heart that loves all the churches regardless of anything. Takes time, but i know that God is there helping me through this issue for he loves all of his children no more no less. Just like that song that has the line "nothing you can do, could make him love you more, and nothing that you've done could make him close the door......."

Hey! i just realize and want to reassure myself now that God does not show favoritism, so no matter which church we go to, daddy in heaven still loves us all THE SAME. Therefore, no matter which church we go to, we are all under the body of Christ. Church is just a building, a name of an like 'organization ' of people gathered together. If there is no one at the building, than the 'church' is just a building. There are different meaning of churches. i shall not go into that today.

I am trying to stop myself from having the wrong perspecitive, saying the wrong thing with the wrong content. Sorry God, about today, shouldn't have. '
>> hugz<<

Sometimes

2005-08-01T21:38:00.000+08:00

hellow!
sometimes i wonder what my future would be like.
Sometimes, talking to certain a people makes me real bored.
sometimes i say to God " This is my life, take it"
Sometimes i say to God" Since this is my life, let me handle it on my own"
sometimes being me is not sufficent enough, i need God
sometimes i wonder who will if i will marry
sometimes i wonder if i will NOT marry
sometimes i wonder Who will be my groom
sometimes i wonder if i will live in Spore all my life
sometimes i wonder what it would be really like to go on the field
sometimes, i wonder if there are strings attached to most things in life
sometimes, wondering alone will not produce anything

But

All the time, i belive in Christ
All the time, i know that God has given me a purpose in life
All the time, i see my fellow 'family members' around me
All the time, i will follow thee
All the time, i have the faith that no matter which path i go, i have a good friend with me
All the time, living life is not easy
All the time, i want, pray for things which cannot be brought with money
All the time, i pray that there would be more good than bad in the world
All the time having fun, love and joy is something that i will want
All the time, i trust GOd to be my matchmaker, he makes the BEST decisions :)
All the time, want to be me! :)

Above all, i am a PRINCESS and i will go to the ends of the earth for him

face up!

2005-07-20T22:10:00.000+08:00

20July
Hellow :)
sometimes, when it comes to adapting to a new enviroment, its not really easy. It takes time and effort. Life is not about appeasing people but being yourself. Taking a lot of effort would help, but if it does not work it would leave one feeling very down. Therefore, i feel that by being yourself and at the same time, being concerned for the people around you would get you a number of friends.

Someone once told me that she noticed that the more 'popular' people are the ones who are like draw more attention to others than to his/herself, as in like maybe showing concern for other people other than one's ownself. After thinking about that, i found that it was quite true. Although some people gain friends through looks and intelligence too i realize.

If fellow human beings dont really appreciate one's efforts in friendship, i think it might be time to move on to other people, there are others who appreciate...like.. hint hint :P Its just sometimes, some people dont really understand their value though, but its okie :)
Its not easy to know who are my real friends, alththogh i think real friends is actually good friends just that in another word, so if its like that, i think its quite easy to know liao. ok, friends who understands play a part, i personally feel that listening is also a very important part of friendship, because in order to understand, one has to listen. Everyone plays an important role in the lives of their peers. One may not know it, but actully he/she actually does. Therefore, its open the door let people enter your life, dont hide away or dissapear.

Life is about God, who loves us soooo much. He wants us to serve, serve God, serve others, live with a servanthood attitude. Suddenly, i just realized that Jesus came down to this earth not for his own gain, but to serve. ok, actually i know it all long :P If we want to live a life that follows the example of Christ, we should be God-centered, and all that. He is the Prince of Peace and Provider and .... everything. He loves us soo muchly.

I think i shall end here tonite. God bless and Peace be with you!

HelLow, new start of a blog

2005-07-19T00:18:00.000+08:00

18 July
Hellow! :)
i decided to delete ALL my past entires and start with a new blog instead. In this new blog, i will try my best to be an encouragement and not just complain and all that. 'cos u see, i have decided that i have come to a point in life where i realized that stories everyday would not be reali realistic. Ok, but then, i think i will write in story form though sometimes. Life without stories and imagination would be rather boring. :p

Since this is a new blog, many things are not up yet, so bear with the incomplentancy of this blog ya? ;0) However, i cant promise a tag-board though, considering about not having it.

Anyways, life has been good. I just got a spiritual mentor recently. I reali like her. I have come to a point in my life where i feel that i have to be accountable to someone and need a mentor to keep tabs on me, push me back on the spiritually right track when i go out lorz. Life as a Christian, we tend to sometimes stray and not be living the way we ought be living which is to be like our Father in Heaven. I want to become an instrument of God, fully used by him, fullfilling his purpose in my life, seeking him always and living for him and only him. Yup, thats the thing. :) Speaking of which, i just remembered... goals... hmm... interesting. :P

i shall end here today, nite nite and God Bless! :O)